end april ramblings

damn... i took mc today n ytd. the pain was unbearable... dunno what shit i ate. can't be just the pineapple juice, what else can contribute to such agony?! Haiz... felt so bad. just check the co's email. there are like so many things i can do, for a change, and yet here i am at home, rolling in my bed most of the time numbing the throbbing feeling. gotta skip swimming this evening too, how sianz. might as well use the time to do some work... sigh sigh sigh... hopefully i'll feel better & luckier tmr... if not dunno how to tahan the stay-up. better update my finances, got so many things to pay recently and soon. must think of ways to earn extra $. bleh.. life.

Ramblings

So i did, almost, broke my record of continuous attendance. lolz

Really feel like staying in today if not for the fact i got sch later. Didn't sleep well for the past few nights.
Gosh... once i even dreamt that i failed my wbp module with 26%! Exams is in July lor... im going insane. I wasn't even paying as much attention as i did last yr, y such morbid dreams?! probably a wake-up call to get my butt into momentum issit?!


i have 101 things to do and the last thing is to sit inside the office and stared blankly into the screen, like now. I could run so plenty of errands if not of that i've to put my butt in here for livelihood. haiz... ...

one more day to Friday...

cant wait to see the gals on wed...

TGIF

this entry was in 'draft' status since 11April, long forgetten.

woke up with a great reluctance to work. dark clouds, heavy rain... perfect to sleep in.

decided not to for fear incur mum's wrath. plus i've had a good record this year, not to mention the 2wks MC. hence, i braved the exhaution, numbness, big downpour to 'aquarium' to find that there's nothing to do! couple of pathetic faxes, emails, request & that's all?! I finish it all in less than 2hrs...



should have go with my instinct... arghhh



was abt to play 'match it' with ting when tkn walked in, sianzzz. she left 1/2hr later, dunno why she bother to come in the 1st place. there's 3more hrs to go still... bored bored bored bored bored... i've been reading bk 4 for the 2nd time since lunch... having this immense urge to leave the office to go cut my hair. though rebonding is what i need now but lacking the moolahs.



overspend recently, since after exams when my wallet was collecting dust. can u believe if i tell u i can go through days without reaching for my wallet?!

from jamie's trackshoes, heels for myself, day out with qi & min to amk hub = untraceable money gone that day, bills, pedi cpak, not to mention school fees in may n the swimming lesson fee next wk, a package planning to take plus the penang trip... blah blah blah...

limitless stuffs.. limited moolahs...



On a happier note... Minmin won silver for her 200m & bronze for 4x100m relay in her sch's sports' day. So happy for her... not to mention the time (brought her to the stadium last sat for practice) & effort ($29.90 track shoe, the one i wore is only $12.90) spent.

mum was so elated that she called me straight after the run, commentating the race for me. can really feel the excitedness from her tone. seems that min, last runner for her team, manage to overtake 2 runners to take the 3rd placing.

Can sense that mum is really happy also. was complaining she never turned up for any sch events during qi & mine's era. But cant really blame, both of us never ran though we both got trophies for field events not held on actual day.

Gosh...

Erm.. i just tag something i wasnt even sure if i shld.. what's done is done. just hope it is untraceable.. urphs

Qi is coming back for good this week after 6mths in hall9 with the occassional returns.... means I got nowhere to go if i want to read my novel to the middle of the night.

it's amazing that disengagement seems easier than engagement. I'm used to her popping ard for few days a week nia that i wonder how i or we gonna cope... maybe she'll be surprised that how little time i'm at home on weekdays. No thanks to the aquarium at far far away land & sch on evenings. Guess there's gonna be the usual disagreements of household chores delegation, the 'taking-in-hand" of Min, the toliet timetable etc...

Probably most important of all, is to keep my temper in check. Must stop the habit of nagging everyone before i morphed into a bossy bitch.. lolz.

MSN

Here i am sitting down after a hetic morning.. gotta shift all the furnitures to repalce the flooring mat which was soaked with fish water from next door's fish tank. arms aching sia..

L told me this is her fav website = site that she put in the fav list. Lolz.. so i tot i better update a bit... haha

Sometimes when i'm really Really REALLY bored at work, which is most of the times, I'm glad that friends and sisters are ard to chat with him, making time more bearable for me.

Sometimes i really regret tt i taught minmin how to msn.. especially when im busy.
her typing speed is one thing, her expression is another. Sometimes i tot im talking to some ang moh kia - AMK

Sometimes i ran out of topics with her... always the usual asking abt sch, hw, mum n swimming...
makes me wonder if im over-extending control over her.. it wasn't long b4 i realise my worries are unfounded. she master the skill of pacifying me...

This few weeks i woke up not to the alarm clock or the sunlight or naturally... but to the screaming of mum at her..

wake up.. learn ur spelling. today got spelling u last night never learn

your compo is disgusting.. re-do
corrections not done
jia, wake up
pencil box not in sch bag
comb ur hair
jia, wake up
change ur clothes
keep the books
jia, wake up
hurry eat ur breakfast
etc,etc.

imagine the shock i woke up to... sigh.

anyway... dear leng is finally starting a blog.. still in the midst of doing while im writing here
(cheenafied.wordpress.com - the 2 of u, pls help her with this, i dun use wordpress & she really got zero knowledge. "need to pay?" was the qn i'll never forget, =p)

P/s: She is quite enthusiatic abt us 4 going for a short trip next yr for our 10th anniv - HKG/Macau

Jun calling for a night out if I didn't see her comments wrongly.. (sleeping at 330hr makes ur eyes blurry n watery..)

Ting is stuck with work n exam on the 28th n probably her infatutation with Fernández Torres n maybe leng's oscar. Maybe we shld meet w/o her 1st? haha

as for me... the ever-procrastintor is finally going for her swimming lessons! getting jittery though.... images of me in that wacky swim wear... glurpppp

will try to update soon..

TGIF =)

The Other Boleyn Girl

I rarely watch movies, but this is a MUST for me. The last show that I die die must watch was "The Prestige" , yeah Scarlett Johansson again. maybe is the hunks effect, Eric Bana Christian Bale or Hugh Jackman. LOLZ. I was thinking no kaki also must go watch alone. But heng ting can acc me go watch this. we 2 really got telepathy, 受不了... YY dun be jealous ok?! haha.

Based on the best selling novel by Philippa Gregory, "The Other Boleyn Girl" is an engrossing and sensual tale of intrigue, romance, and betrayal set against the backdrop of a defining moment in history. Two sisters, Anne (Natalie Portman) and Mary (Scarlett Johansson) Boleyn, are driven by their ambitious father and uncle to advance the family's power and status by courting the affections of the King of England (Eric Bana). Leaving behind the simplicity of country life, the girls are thrust into the dangerous and thrilling world of court life and what began as a bid to help their family develops into a ruthless rivalry between Anne and Mary for the love of the king. Initially, Mary wins King Henry's favor and becomes his mistress, bearing him an illegitimate child. But Anne, clever, conniving, and fearless, edges aside both her sister and Henry's wife, Queen Katherine of Aragon, in her relentless pursuit of the king. Despite Mary's genuine feelings for Henry, her sister Anne has her sights set on the ultimate prize; Anne will not stop until she is Queen of England. As the Boleyn girls battle for the love of a king one driven by ambition, the other by true affection England is torn apart. Despite the dramatic consequences, the Boleyn girls ultimately find strength and loyalty in each other, and they remain forever connected by their bond as sisters.

Identity Crisis!

Interestingly, i had a several encounters with sales promoter lately.

Some tot i'm a young mother in her early 20s (cos' of jamie lim lah, who else?!)
Some see me as 30+ mixed chinese-malay.. (huh?!)
Some ppl tot i'm 18 m'sia (what the...)
some tot i'm from mainland (GASPS!) is it cos i wore specs? my fluent mandarin? my hair?

There could be many other speculations unknown to me... except a 23yr old Singaporean 100% pure bloood Hokkien Chinese.

This is very horrifying, ok?!

How is a 20yr SG-ian suppose to 'look' like anyway?

Must 检讨检讨...... sux.

Post-Exam; Get a Life

As always... the period after every last paper seems so empty.

in the past, there's always after-exams celebration with friends. Ask me to go out with these ppl now... i guess they are as reluctant as me cos there's always the tendency to check answers. (what the...)

I took the jurong route home, alight at yishun wanting to shop ard in northpoint. Alas! NP having a revamp... there isn't anything I can buy. There's always this STRONG URRGE to spend $$$... retail therapy yah. in the end got min a scrungee. mum yelled her head off that morning cos minmin cldn't find her hair tie. I woke up to all these screaming almost every morning. haiz... auto gear pls, Jamie.
I just recalled i just bought a pair of track shoe for min also but that wasn't satisfying leh. haiz

This is so sianzzz.... when im supposed to be studying, many to-do/to-buy stuffs keeping popping into my mind. Yet when im so free now.. i cant recall any of those.

Want to go jalan jalan... but everyone like so busy...

was thinking of a weekend trip to batam or JB this mth... no kaki. haizzzz

finding travel kaki is a very difficult task. even close friends or family might not be a good choice. this theory is tried and tested. =p if go alone, sure kenna niam. haizzzz

i really need to pick up swimming soon... at least I got something to occupy myself other than sch n work. also, wont get tease by jamie. ting aldy on me for diving liao.. so must set a timeline for this. =)

This idea is part of the self-implemented program on "Get a life, Jacq!" LOLz

sidenote: tkn's son was almost drowned in a condominium pool last week. tkn very anxiously book me for swimming lesson in june. i was almost drowned once long long time ago on a fateful day at Jurong Safra after a Chinese Garden visit but it didn't occur my folks to send for swimming lessons. Why huh?! (details were input mum when i clarified with her this memory of mine)

JacQ

is freed!!! exams over =)

but lesson resumed next monday... bleh

Jacq has no life

I need to break out of this routine after the last paper badly!!!

While other ppl of my age do things like:

Shopping, credit card-ing, K-ing, pooling, travelling, watch movies, go cheong, dating, K drama serial-ing, socialising, religion-ing, investing, marrying etc

Jacq goes home/sch faithfully after work... market-ing with mum during weekends or chewing readings after readings like a geek (or am one), derive cheap thrills by irritating her 9yrold sister and commit social sucide by making remarks so tat frens (those remaining) get pissed with her, with mutiple body pains/aches like a old granny and with lackadaisical attitude about image.

How great... seriously need a life.

need to recharge... running out of energy for the last 2 papers... How!!

Ridikulus

is my conclusion of this world...

had this discussion with a friend over msn today...

Pure singaporeans are overwhelmed by foreign-born in our own land...
govt pay foreigners to study here & they jump ship for green card, if not bring their entire kampung here n behave like they owned the place
These 'policies' was made to sounnd right when implemented but look at it closely... something is wrong somewhere..

going further down to personal level.. i find it quite absurb when

a friend of 10 yrs who earn twice your payroll, own several credit cards (not equivalent to very rich, but higher rate of fast cashflow), travel (or try to) few times in a year, spent close to $200 on few-mth-bf's birthday, splurging on shoes & clothes sometimes, take cabs on personal errands ask you to bank transfer $30 for pedi package instalment cos her card has began deducting while she may meet you in 2 week's time?!
I'm not gek-gao-ing about the $. if u know me, u know me. i'm quite chin-cai when it comes to $ on friends. It is the attitude. cln't believe my eyes lor.

这不是三言两语就能说清我心中的纳闷，很失望。。。
也许，人类的自我中心就是那么重。我也不外吧。。。。。。
只重视对自己有直接利益的人和事。。。但是你能肯定那时对的吗？！
说到这，又不禁叹了口气 。。。
做人吗。。。得失心不要看得太重， 会得不偿失。

不要曲解我，我的语气是很心平气和的。我对事情的了解可能有误，也没有对或错， 只是有感而发。

不是对这个世界有怨言，是这个世界让我有怨言。

email

Out of nowhere, XXXXX email me this just bcoz a blur queen email him instead of me regarding some sch stuff, which i had emailed to the whole class. I was doing them a favour.

Sent: Wednesday, 5 March 2008 2:09:43
Subject: RE: FM Text - Urgent!

Jacqueline

Please go handle this thing yourself! Please reply to those who are interested.

Regards,
XXXXX

wahtever he meant, So freaking rude! If he thought I would just accept this silently, he is so wrong. After kpkb-ing to many ppl, i was finally calmed down around evening time to reply.

XXXXX,

Thanks for taking the trouble to forward those emails though I'm rather appalled by your choice of words & punctuation mark.
It doesn't reflect very well on you really and I'm rather surprised that you actually cc everyone this.
People do get confused sometimes, you have to be a bit more forgiving than this.
You also have to understand that it is beyond my control to whether they click "reply all" or "reply GLENN".
Regrettably, this mail will take up some capacity of your inbox.

PS: I cc everyne this cos' I believe they need and will be interested to know the class rep's fastidious email preference.

To everyone else:

Hi all! Please check your 'send to' list carefully next time. Thank you very much. =)
Refrain from emailing irrelevant stuff to Glenn, unless otherwise absolutely necessary. He seems to get pretty upset over it.

Best regards,

Jacq (",)

His reply:

Jac
Whatever that please you, i have no comment. Great choice of words and nice font size you using. I could not have done better.

Regards
XXXXX
sent from mobile device

Seriously, I didn't expect him to reply. Didn't he just commented?! haha!
What was interesting was the replies from other ppl who sense the 'fire' from our exchange, as they were all CC. A few (girls) sms me before i replied which more or less summed up to - "wahlau Jacq, u saw tt email?! Shoot him back"

A few others (guys) replied after my reply, " Relax. Maybe some misunderstanding. we going to be classmates for 2yrs. never mind lah"

Seems like some gender war. As trival as this seems to be now, it was a different story at that moment in time.

1stly, I aldy buay-song with him for quite some time. His overly high profileness which he eagerly seeks and the way he kept disrupting the lesson momentum, I tolerated. I had actually shunned him to avoid direct conflict.
(What must happen, will happen i guess. at least in a milder form)

2ndly, it was only ONE mis-mailed. Must he get so worked up?! He sounded like the whole world owes him or I've been burdening him. hello, even my bosses (past & present) don't snap at me like that.

3rdly, he abused his position as a class rep to flood everyone's email with irrelevant stuff, which he tot was a friendly gesture. Nobody complain.

I believe he has the capability to express his thoughts in a nicer manner, if not he badly need to attend some email writing etiquette class.

he thought that was worse, my 1st draft was even more nasty & i can go on & on. Words like dumbass, harebrained, wimp, loser & !@#$% kept flashing in my mind.

N remarked that 你很厉害leh，他1句，你顶这么多！I find it quite hilarious after that actually.

Lesson learnt: 老虎不发威，你当我是病猫！ I kept quiet in class doesn't mean I'm mute, ok!

Like every other, there's always both sides to a story. I don't denied that I acted upon the situation on impulse & very subjectively, but i felt that something has to be done to set the record straight. Stubborn, some may called this. I regard this as an femininity element from IJ times. U never know, Mag Low & Jo Teo might be proud of this. Haha!

postscript: I didn't really take this to heart after venting out, as usual, write & forget.
He, on the other hand, was so childish that he actually sms my sitting partner when we were in the same classroom, 1 table apart. Goodness lor... he is ard 30yrs.

It is my character flaw that I do not hesitate when it comes to any social sucide. Nothing to lose, nothing to gain, i think. You either hate me or love me =p

白老师

[warning... very long entry, read only when u're bored like when i wrote this =p]

I find this conv btwn couz & me quite interesting . She is chinese teacher...

JacQ says:
ask u something. how to 敷衍了事 in formal letter
白老师@Maris says:
depends on what is it that U want to 敷衍了事
白老师@Maris says:
what is it about?
JacQ says:
anyway someone suggest i was trying to 敷衍了事
JacQ says:
by throwing a 72pg doc to her w/o explanation
JacQ says:
in fact any old bird will understand what to do
JacQ says:
she tot I was throwing the ball ard n trying to blame her for the bottleneck
白老师@Maris says:
U refering to school report or to your boss?
白老师@Maris says:
who is "she"?
JacQ says:
customer side exec
白老师@Maris says:
hmm...
白老师@Maris says:
U need to get it done now?
JacQ says:
nope
JacQ says:
i a bit buay song.. so tot need ur help in the sarcasm part..
JacQ says:
ar
白老师@Maris says:
wahaha
白老师@Maris says:
1st, i need to know what is gg on
白老师@Maris says:
i might be able to leave sch early tdy
白老师@Maris says:
if u want
白老师@Maris says:
i can call u later
白老师@Maris says:
or u email me to gimme more details
JacQ says:
.. no need so kua zhang lah
JacQ says:
just a line to shoot her
JacQ says:
think she be speechless
cannot offend them as they r the customer
JacQ says:
mindef ppl..
白老师@Maris says:
but what exactly happened?
白老师@Maris says:
what constitutes that 72page doc?
白老师@Maris says:
and what went wrong?
白老师@Maris says:
what are U supposed to do now?
JacQ says:
blah blah blah... (not impt details)
JacQ says:
which is quite wrong lah
JacQ says:
but she dun have to insinuate tt we were trying to shift responibilities
JacQ says:
ing we r pointing finger at them when we r in the wrong
JacQ says:
i thnk she got put off by the 72pages..ignore then now panic cos FY ending
JacQ says:
must clear the
JacQ says:
so i need a bombastic one liner to shoot her
白老师@Maris says:
1 liner?
白老师@Maris says:
erm
白老师@Maris says:
i'm the long-winded type leh
白老师@Maris says:
must give her a piece of my mind & flood her with my saliva
白老师@Maris says:
if i were u
白老师@Maris says:
but 1st of all
白老师@Maris says:
are u gg 2 give in to what they want?
白老师@Maris says:
as in replace the "wrong" order or smthg?
JacQ says:
no lah.. they order wrongly. just telling them if they want tt component they got to re-order
白老师@Maris says:
ok
白老师@Maris says:
since that's the case
白老师@Maris says:
did u submit a soft copy or hard copy of the report?
JacQ says:
soft
白老师@Maris says:
what i would do it is
白老师@Maris says:
i will highlight the part in the report
白老师@Maris says:
from the email that was sent out to them
白老师@Maris says:
reply from that particular email
白老师@Maris says:
and shoot:
白老师@Maris says:
Dear XXX,
白老师@Maris says:
As per our phone conversation
白老师@Maris says:
Pls refer to the XX report sent on (date)
白老师@Maris says:
Page XX
白老师@Maris says:
Section XX
白老师@Maris says:
Line XX
白老师@Maris says:
(in highlight)
白老师@Maris says:
The report/document clearly indicates that your order as being 'f' instead of 'e'
白老师@Maris says:
as such, we have sent of the order as per quotation/order request (or whatever terminology that you use)
白老师@Maris says:
in the event that you would like to replace the component for 'f'
白老师@Maris says:
kindly resend a quotation order form
白老师@Maris says:
best regards,
白老师@Maris says:
How is that?
JacQ says:
how to put in the part im not 敷衍了事 in the first palce
白老师@Maris says:
did she imply over the fone that U 敷衍了事?
白老师@Maris says:
given that this is a formal letter there's no need to get personal or emotional
白老师@Maris says:
pointing fingers here and there
白老师@Maris says:
U have produced black & white evidence
白老师@Maris says:
she cannot argue
白老师@Maris says:
yeh?
JacQ says:
guess she uses phone so it will be off record
JacQ says:
darn
JacQ says:
okie thanks a lot!

See how systematic & thorough she is & how she ended up solving my qn without answering it & indirectly did my work.

See... i think the formal KPKB letter writing skills resides in the genes... she is the pro though.. Hahaha!

Hyped...

There has been too much going-ons recently... so much tt i can't focus.
(i reached office at 930am today, bad headache kept me awake till wee hrs last night)

Probably the lack of discipline and/or determination, my mind is utterly in confusion now.

Qi pens her/our excitement clearly and interestingly.

As for me, it was a moment of outsourcing, then P&G's resource & capability, then panicking on FM then sudden realisation ACG is still untouch with random flashes of Harry Potter scenes in my mind (Darn... I'm a late bloomer, yah. I watch Titantic 3yrs after the jack & rose fever) while drifiting away to sequencing the layout for the house.

As mentioned, I'm so screwed this sem!!!

Saw this extremely spolit & RUDE girl. About 7-8yrs, dress in ah-lian pink & accompanied by her mum i suppose (ah-soh in her 40s) & another sister in the MRT last night . She was whining the moment she entered in Novena station, grumbling to her mother.

girl: 我要坐！我要坐！我很累！
the mother: 跟那些人说， 叫他们给你坐！
[i was aldy rolling my eyes at this point. 给你坐?! 你老几?]
girl (pointing to an old hunching uncle): 他, 可以吗？
the mother: 不可以！他是老uncle
girl (turned to the lady beside & with fingers stretched outright at her): 你！给我做！

the lady just glared at her and promptly ignored her request, i would have do the same.
There were abt 8ppl who alighted at the next stop but no one wanted to stand up till the train reached, very obvious what was in their mind.

I havent got a chance to tell min this. If she behaves like tt, i probably turn her upside down n whacked. There's this yet another spoilt brat girl in one of the CH8 drama serials. I warned min of she dared to be so rude, in fact she is getting very bo tua bo shuy recently, she will get it from me. She reacts very adversly to cane/scratcher & pep-talk requires certain skills to make it not like nagging.
I can't believe this ok... rebellious stage at 9yrs?! i was still tuk tuk stupid stupid, reading Famous Five, struggling with spectacles when i was 9yrs ok!

At least, can still threaten her with swimming lessons as a last resort.
(Shit! sounds like Bree van de Kamp in Desperate Housewives)

Ok.. gotta stop. Not going to turn this entry into some parental column.

Sidetrack: I finally found the answer to my weird personality. I've prolonged/extended PMS!!!
That explains why i'm always so touchy, only showing tolerance to people whom I think deserved it.
Mood swings is one of the symptons also, easily sulky easily turned light hearted.

I was quite happy when i managed to find a shop selling good quality sandwich, with lots of veges & tasty ingredients for $2/-
There r many bakeries selling those pathetic sandwich with miserable amount of tuna & planta butter for $1.50 which I kinda mad about.

I going back again for sure =)

Mugging...

I spend close to 8hrs in front of the PC ytd, with the ocassion drifiting out.

Managed to complete 3 econs essay.. which i tot was quite a feat.
Could have done more but i spend my entire saturday reading harry potter... heee

as compared to last sem or even last year itself.. i'm actually quite late in starting revison

O well... not excuses but i simple have no mood to activate my gear after those sloppy lectures, xmas, nye, bday, cny & mc...

This sem:
Focus on MMS & EI cos there's no re-module.
Moderate focus on ACG
Try to do something about understanding FM... this is sucky.
I just have no chemistry with Finance stuff. Kill me...

Can't wait for 1st Apr to come (last paper)

Boo

Ok... pox life is officially over along with CNY. Nothing happening.

Work was breeze... wat was accumulated for 2 weeks was easily cleared in 2hrs, talk about efficiency... hah!

Sch was tough... getting panic. Felt so stress at econs class (1st day back)last night... i tot i will just drop dead there. Had to struggle home with those thick study guides... ( man.. regreted buying the TB. My impulse buying always turn out to be mistake.)

Train was filled with roses, bears, chocolates, PDA-ing couples who hogged the seats. duh...

I could do with extra time & probably another brain.

6 more weeks to this disastrous mth.

20 more mths to this disgusting cycle.

Look forward to next fri where suaku lim is taking her virgin trip to vivocity after talking for 16mths.

Water

No matter how busy one is, always remember to drink lotsa water!!!
My failure to do that last weekend trigger the 'heatiness' to the extreme.

After 3 days of fever & pain, finally i can talk like a normal person.

Last few days was insane. Bulk of the pox was on my scalp & face (horrendous!!!) It was swelling so badly that i couldn't even blink my eyes w/o feeling pain. haizzz...
Still feverish.. (which is common).. right eyes redish (i dunno why) but most of the milder pox have subsided, mainly n hands and arms.

But hor, those serious one are those on strategic areas like wrist lah, around the bra strap area (keep pressing on it), lips lah (cant even eat properly) & the nose!!! (i cant even clear the insides, sux)

Since it is 'heatiness', mum has been making me drinks to 'cool down' like white chrysenthemum & corn water (yes, water not soup. is corn & outer leaves boil in water)

But hor, because my body is very 'yin' itself, all this cooling drink is giving me a sore throat right now. haiz... stupid body.

I've accidentedly poke 3 pox on my face.. dunno will leave scars or not. I've plastered my face with Hazeline Snow Cream... hope it can help.

Ok.. back to mugging. I tot i better clear the finished modules 1st then settle the new ones. This sem is really 靠自己！ I need to make a trip to bras basah when i've recover, hope it's not too late.
All the textbooks are in LCK library ref side, sickening!!!

This is not a good start to new year... hopefully is just the end.

Sidenote: Jun dear, thanks for picking my text! =)

Varicella Virus

Great... at age 23yrs 14 days, i got myself into this. Feel embarrassed even by mere mention.

The varicella virus is an enveloped, double-stranded DNA virus. It attaches to the wall of the cell it invades, and then enters the cell. The virus uncoats and is transported to the nucleus where the viral DNA replicates creating new virions that are eventually released from the cell to infect other cells. it is a highly contagious viral infection.

Got a 2 weeks MC, get mixed reaction.

Boss is very seh cos no 1 station in office. Mum is happy cos she got helper at home.

I is happy no need to work but not happy cos i cant go to school.

They dun have video lecture for part timers... this is very frustrating. Gonna email the coordinator... bleh.

No need to check search engine lah... it is chicken pox lah. =_='''

Reply to sq47

Wanted to tag back but got a bit fed up with the words limit. ( i got issues with too many short forms in a sentence)

I read my entry after seeing what u've tagged. I usually don't read what I've posted cos it'll be like checking homework after completion like that.

to Minmin: In case you are reading this, you HAVE to check all your school work when you have finished
(o yes, my 9 yr old sister reads our blogs and translates it to our mum, reason for the asterisks)

I didn't realise it was quite a long entry, haha!

I take that as a complement since BM is my blogosphere idol. hee =)

Ting: your one sentence triggers such ''intellectual'' thoughts out from me leh, haha!

Slacker than life...

It's Martin Luther King's Day. Dunno what is that, just that is a USA PH and I'm once again, slacking at work.


Ting was saying how she realised much time was lost due to poor planning after CV writing.


It leads me to some pondering while i was shiting (hah!)


How much time i've wasted and am wasting now...


Headhunter lecturer once said that for local uni grads, companies will see their results & how they carry themselves during interviews, professional experiences are not expected since, after all they study full time.

Whereas for part-timers like us, a degree is only to place us on equal playing field. If we r expecting to get a better job after the course, we r being too idealistic. In the end, it's the RELATED (i.e)working experiences that score high for us.

Half the class, including me, murmured a "O shit!".


Looking back at myself, ( i know we can't turn back time but still..)


I spent 8 months landing myself into one deep shit, 18mths wallowing in self denial, 20mths hiding in aquarium while getting paid and having intellectual deterioration at the same time.
as such, it doesn't really value add much.

Interest in sch has faded to a large extent this sem in the midst of the ongoing festivals and so is the confidence to score.

Am i being positively negative or negatively positive? Shrugzzz

Had plenty of plans in my mind which are basically as good as daydreams as long as there r not executions. Surf the career portals once in a while when im having withdrawal symptons. Jobs available are either too difficult for me or I'm too difficult for them, which leads me to contemplate escape elsewhere on earth that is even harder given my pathetic qualifications.

Things get so depressing sometimes that I wished i've went for nursing course instead. Hah!

Sometimes i hate what i have become - a frog-in-the-well kind of coward hiding in too much of a comfort zone, living life as it is, 得过且过，敷衍塞责，close to 吊儿郎当 even, shunning responsibilities, getting naggy (this cld be the onset of spinster-hood, haha!) and with personal goals of eat, shit, sleep and s** (I'm joking about this one, hah!)

Maybe that's the reason for escapade though everyone knows escaping is not the best route to solutions, but how many people really do what they say. Shrugzzz..

Don't worry, im not 胡思乱想-ing. This is a realistic self-reflection with no solution yet.
How come there isn't an "operating manual" accompanied with my birth, telling me what to do. It'll make things so much easier. I'm so screwed.

What to do, what to do?
Maybe i can start by being punctual to work again?! hurhur...

thinking of going Macau in april...no $$$