Lagging

Yep... lagging in my entries these days... this is one of those filler post to say im still alive. If there are ppl who DO read my blog... whahaha

nothing much to talk about. was reading HERWORLD ytd.. got this article say Fatigue is due to a lack of IRON & VITAMIN A. Hmm... no wonder i get exhausted so easily for as long as i can remember...
Strangely enough... I'm never a fussy eater... SO HOW COME I GET IRON DEFICIENCY???
accord to the lousy doctor at Changi Hospital, it could probably be due to my heavy menstruation. Maybe true... maybe not since it's not everytime its heavy. Aiya... dunno lah. At least now my hair stays in its place n not over the floor... I guess should be alright lah.

But i need to get over the fatigues-ness soon since school is starting. YES!!! I got my time table the other day. I swore I was ELATED whe i got it... ahaha... anyway it begins on monday 13NOv. Previously there was a typo.

Yeah... something new to keep myself occupied. whahaha!!! Maybe 3mths down the road I wont feel so excited but currently I am lah. hahaah...

so rubbishy... dunno what im talking about.. ahaha.. i'm mad lah..

to the girls: Meeting on WED for dinner. Any suggestions for venue?

Sorry

Can one apologize too much??? Somehow, somewhere, something... Recently, I've been saying this phrase quite frequently, a little too frequent I think.

At work... I apologize to suppliers for failed bids, to buyers for missed deadlines.
At home... I apologize to brat for my harsh tone, to mum for things undone, to sis for disturbing.
At outside, I apologize to friends for misunderstanding, for stood-ups, for upsets, even for certain untruths even...

Sigh... I'm so f***ed up.

Nope... Don't worry. This is NOT an onset of yet another DEPRESSION.

However, not all matters can be solved with just a word of apology. Sometimes, it might be the triggering factor of another headache-ing incident. Yep... I've thrown myself into an situation. This is not very good for a person who is SO EVER INDECISIVE. I HATE myself for being such an ASSHOLE. So much said about my hideous character... wahahahaha. I'm going crazy...

It is not my intention to keep you all in suspense. BUT give me some time to sort out this issue before I bare it all out to you all. I haven't quite figure out the whole scenario currently...

Jun: I wasn't kidding when I say I want your life. Hahaha...

Right now... I wished I can bury myself in tons & tons of school work, like complex calculus or a 4000 word essay (at least I gain from it intelluctually!!!) rather than cracking my brain cells over such affairs which just further complicate & smudge my life. Oh bother...

Maybe, perhaps, possible that things are not that perplexing as what I've assumed. Considering the frequency that being shunned at on MSN. Could it be coincidental or it just plainly that i've evolved into such unlikeable & annoying person?

3 more weeks to the start of course... not excited but I can't wait for it to begin. For then, I swear I'll throw everything behind & focus. I know I'm capable of that as I did it before & I can do it again...

雨天

x日x月

我的心情跟 窗外阴霾 的天空一样， 朦 朦胧胧。 乌云笼罩的天空看不到一丝 曙光， 沉重的心情看不见一点希望。。。这一次，想必又 没得救了。因为我是一个不会U-转的人。。。

“开心就好，别因一时的失控而把喜剧 变成 悲剧”

没想到周刊星座专栏所说的都 应验了。真是人算不如天算。 命中注定就不能改变。缘分已尽就不能强求。 冥冥中自有安排。。。 这样也好，不需要挣扎于现实与 虚构， 不需要被谎言而受尽困扰。 我只想抛开心中一切杂念，简简单单的生活。

“这个世界是很简单的。只是, 人喜欢在不知不觉中把事情变得复杂。。。”

而我 偏偏就是那个不知不觉 把 每一件事 复杂化的人。结果搞到这样的结局也是自食其果，都是 应得的报应。 对那些被我无意中伤害的人，我只能由衷的说声 “对不起”。。。。。。

[以上故纯属虚构， 如有雷同， 实属巧合。 请各位当做消遣文章，读完就忘。不要举一反三， 不要胡思乱想， 不要借题发挥。 谢谢！]

Still alive & kicking...

YEP... haven't update for a while I know. Hmm... even Jun is bloging more frequently. Ting.. I know u r busy. Haha =)

Just had a very sumptuous home cooked curry with lontong for dinner. Wah... very full now. ***burppp*** Mum - YOU ARE THE BEST!!!

This week just whoosed by... didn't even realise ytd was Friday. I used to be very sensitive to weekends, for it was LIBERATION from work. Haha!!!

Erm... can't remember what i wanted to blogged about. Hmm... erm... aiya... forget it..

till it struck me... bye for now!!!

heehee!!!

Recently, my sister & I have been wearing the same color polo tee coincidentally on certain morning...

Today... we decide to take a photo while on our way out.. using her camera...

in the end... the photo fail to capture the likeness of our tee but drastically enhanced our difference..

We're standing side by side...

Why is LIFE so confusing???

因为人与人之间的关系是很复杂的。。。

我发现眼睛红肿的原因是泪腺阻塞。。。 如果严重的话，可能会损害功能。这样也好。。。也许伤心的时候就不会流泪。

online 看到这。。。

鱼对水说：“我一直在哭泣， 但是你永远都不知道，因为我在水里。”
水说：“我知道，因为你一直在我心里。”

Guess 很多人就是这样。你认为对方不知道， 不代表他真的不知道！ 有时候，不是每件事都要说 得清清楚楚。有时候是要靠心去领悟的。。。

其实， 这个世界是很简单的。只是， 人们喜欢在不知不觉中把事情变得复杂。。。

Yawnzzz...

I realised it's been 4 days since i last blogged. Seems very long leh...

Anyway, I bunked out yesterday again... with HY & HL from LTA. Dunno y... recently I've many activites that required me to stay out. Coincidences bah...

My swollen right eye from last week recovered on Thurs but after last night, it was left eye's turn. Suay...

Haha... my family are watching that 'old sch' vcd again with 1st auntie & uncle. There's a scene where the lead actor had an erection at the brothel & trying to hide embarrassingly with that constipated look on his face. Then minmin asked why. My auntie replied almost immediatedly, " Oh?! He wants to shit." Whahahaa!!! KIDS...

Qn of the day (been buzzed by HY this qn for the entire morning):

Why do some people grind their teeth when they
sleep?

[To Jun: saw ur comment. no worries lah... I'm still sane & logical. =)]

Boohoo...

Today seemed very mythical... especially on my way home. Nope... didn't encounter any queer events. It's the HAZE lah... so foggy... I thought i was dreaming lor but the foulness of the smoke was too much...

can't write much today... my eyes is swollen. Could be due to contact lens... could be the HAZE!!!

!#$%^&*

惨了！！！

今天，我老板对我说，“老板娘快疯了。。。为了不要让她 胡思乱想， 我决定让她早点来公司帮忙。
孩子的事就 由我接手。所以，让她 做你的 basic work ， 你就 take over 我的 basic work。 ”

我的反应：　嘴里说　“哦！”　心想　“靠！这样，　我可以也 take over 你的薪水吗？！”

之后，老板就跟我罗罗嗦嗦说了一大堆。。。i think 他 有可能他会先疯？！

whatever it is...虽然我觉得老板很可怜，我想我也很可怜。　 I think 我也会疯。。。 Oh no！！！　如果真的是这样，大家别感到意外！　

啊哈哈哈哈哈啊哈哈哈哈！！！　

PS: I email you all the photos le. Actually can copy from here also. Don't complain le yah?! =)

爱情的字典里找不到永远。。。

Getting emo nowadays... muz be due to the periodic discharge of blood and mucosal tissue from the uterus, occurring approximately monthly.
Was watching this HK drama serials just now... totally amazed & bewildered at how one (man & woman) can sacrifice in the name of LOVE. It's just insanity but rare in reality. I got a little too engrossed in it... but was later distracted by Lara Croft on ch5... hahaha!!!

Heard Sun Yanzi's song just now on radio & it's been ringing in my ears ever since... crap.

Although everything seems very peaceful around me... I think it got a little bit too calm. I'm hard to please i know... When when when can I find the life I truly enjoy???
Becoz' of cramps & late nights last week, I spent the whole day lying on my bed. Been thinking alot, don't worry... Not those 胡思乱想 like before. More of reflections of the past year. Sigh... haven really figure it out totally yet... so not going to write anything down 1st... =)

Haze has dissipated... thank goodness!!! Eyes got infected bcos of that... kaozzzz!!!

Saturday

Basically slept the whole day today... Haze is making me very lethargic...

Anyway... people please take note - Haze means there's presence of large amount impurites in the air. Hence, try not to leave food out in the open for too long. Especially for cooked food as they will turn bad easily in this kind of unnatural phenomemen.

Watch vcd with mum just now... VERY old school movie. Fwah!!! Quite surprised still got vcd for old movies like this. I grew up watching those hongkong vampires/horror/kungfu movies, taiwanese army flicks & comedies. It was only in sec sch that i started to watch hollywoods more.
Sigh... those were the days...

Met up with a friend recently then it suddenly dawned to us that we knew each other for almost a year already. How time files... Despite the fact that I also met up with the LTA bunches whom i met even earlier, there are more of acquaintances. I even swore to myself I won't atend any kind of such senseless gatherings again coz it is just plain meaningless & boring. Guess, FATE & AFFINTY play a part too in FRIENDSHIPS. This is just my style, i believe. Once I see one as a friend, it's friends for life. Loyalty is a trait of Capricorn. =)

Mid-Autumn

This year's Mid-Autumn has been especially hazy... bcoz instead of carrying lanterns, SG's neighbours prefer to torch their forests. They forgot that " Fire is a good servant but a bad master"
真是的！月到中秋分外朦！！！
Anyway... pictures from last night.


Our nth Mid-Autumn together!!!

hmm... Sweet Subtle =)

Wah!!! 1 word - 靓！

Ops! no flash...

It's the haze... really... ... make our face so oily looking.

Happy Mid-Autumn's Festival!!!

Happenstance II

Part II... after

DEPRESSION
bleakness, blowout, blues, bummer, cheerlessness, dejection, desolation, desperation, despondency, disconsolation, discouragement, dispiritedness, distress, dole, dolefulness, dolor, downheartedness, dreariness, dullness, dumps, ennui, gloominess, heavyheartedness, hopelessness, lowness, lugubriosity, melancholia, melancholy, misery, mortification, qualm, sadness, sorrow, trouble, unhappiness, woefulness, worry

&

APATHETIC
callous, cold, cool, draggy*, drippy, emotionless, flat, impassive, indifferent, insensible, laid back, languid, moony*, passive, stoic, stolid, uncaring, unconcerned, unemotional, unfeeling, uninterested, unmoved, unresponsive, untouched, wimpy*

but still

SARCASTIC
acerb, acrimonious, cutting, harsh, incisive, pithy, pungent, rough, salty, satiric, scathing, severe, sharp, stinging, succinct, trenchant, virulent


Actually, the triggering factor for this new blog is GOOGLE ate my old blog!!!
Guess it's time already... ...