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LoL... it's been 2 months since my last entry... unfortunately.. nothing has changed. still stressed out... by work, by school, by my wallet...

i think i like to torture myself... working so hard..neglecting supposedly 'impt' stuff... dunno for what... hahaha... even my boss is afraid of my workaholism...

sleeping in class, don't want but i can't help it... not paying attention to family when i know i should... not taking care the way i spend which i know is gonna land in problem one of these days....

like the feeling of stomach rumbling... like the feeling of 'too-many-things-to-do-but-no-time'... like the feeling of being overwhelmed and lost & trying hard for solutions...like the feeling of constant migraine, earache & gastric pain... like to think of death to escape problems... think i'm a sadist.

someone asked if I have thought of changing my thinking... i said maybe not.. actually what i wanted to say was maybe, you can me change if not....

can't wait for this year to end....