REGRET / REFLECTION / RESOLUTION

~ Never let yesterday's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams" ~

2006...OMG it's so damn fast!!! I feel that this year has been unfairly compressed. Yet, I couldn't really recall any significant details at all. Denial has lead to forgetfulness... I guess… hahah! Seems like this year is nothing but of Bad Decisions!

Just as I:
- Celebrated my 21st birthday in the MY MOST OBTUSE MENTAL STATUS (aka BLUR) with a bunch of GOOD Friends whom has little tolerance for Alcohol
- Shake my leg & bum around the entire Lunar New Year while ‘studying’
- Got myself into a bad deal at GIT and endured for almost 3months before calling the FINAL Quit.(I went back after 1st resignation coz I had foolishly trusted one who told me to give another shot. It was a shot at me literally.
Culture shock, inability to adapt, pressure intense environment or whatever, I strongly believe my eight characters clashed with this Co. Suffered from paranoia, depression & gastric virus (many times some more) before I decided to take the silent retreat. Email my Ultimate resignation after days of MIA. So appalled that I got HY to pick up my stuff on my behalf!
- Celebrated the “whatever that could go wrong went extremely wrong” birthday. Erm…… let’s just not dwell on the ‘already happened’ anymore bah. Heehee =p
- Met that idiot. Another bad decision. Good thing is over now.
- Got a new job. Passed the 3months mark & still hanging on till now
- Celebrated yet another birthday in JB. Something new!!! 2nd time all 4 of us + 3 male escorts went overseas?! (Need to stamp passport so consider overseas. Another case of self denial… Ho Ho Ho!)
- Got my results for IATA-UFTAA Cert. it was such a fool proof paper that I wasn’t elated at all when received my distinction cert. Phui!
- 3rd mths into the new job I procrastinate about going back to school. It was an excuse to run away from the job lah. But I hang on. =)
- Watch my 1st R21 show ‘Lower City”
- Went back to school eventually
- Attracted unwanted attention at Changi Airport Arrival hall… Eh-hem… for that last BIG DAY of the year.
- Went to Zouk after 2 years -> too early & too rowdy. Disappointing = (
- Sessions of MahJong, conversation on GuYs, BeauTy, FasHion & COnStiPAtion...

It's 2007

I want:

- LOVE THYSELF
- Improve my fitness level.
- Look Better
- Have more Confidence
- Save more $$$
- Travel via Plane at least once!
- Appreciate my family more
- Love my sisters more (No over-indulge though)
- Study Hard!
- Put more effort in work!
- Take initiative in friendships THis is an overstatement
- Wear skirts?! (If memory never fail me, I think I managed to wear it once this year! Haha!)

You must remember this:
A kiss is still a kiss. A sigh is just a sigh;
The fundamental things apply, As time goes by.
- Herman Hupfeld

Wishing A Great Year Ahead for All; Happy 2007 !!!

Last workday 2006

Whoo-hoo! 1 more hr to go. but shite I got lesson at faraway Unicampus later. Sux!

The satisfaction derived from consolidating what have been done throughout the year is indeed shiok! haha.. sound so perverted...

Some stupid spoil my morning today. Was happily eating my sandwich when the msn conversation started. Although i'm not a very verbalised person (even worse now that I hardly talk to people) Sometimes I really hate sms & msn. Because the tone and attitude of the conversation are misconstrued MOST of the times, dependent largely on the imagination of the readers. That's why I'm very particular about punctuations for I don't like to be misinterpreted. Misunderstandings are like vampires - easy to create difficult to kill. It's takes a lot of courage, guts, tonnes of reflection and detailed analysis to realise/discover the miscommunications & accept it, admit it & bear responsibility for it. Be it the executor or victim.
However, there are other situations whereby people just causually glance at the message & ASSUMED what was written was what they PERCIEVED to be. In OB, we call it the SYMBOLIC-INTERACTION PARADIGM. (just proving that I pay attention in class.. heehee)
This behavior is most observable in the male species of human beings, for they are structured this way.
Realised when U sms a couple of questions to girls, they can reply u very fast with all questions answered & even answered your doubts for the next sms?!
Change the receipient to a guy, u'll realised no matter how concise you are, they will only response with a one liner (i.e no details) to the last phrase. Some even require several promptings via subsequent smses before U finally get the answer you want among the "huhs" & "yahs"
If you are nodding your head now, U know what I meant. *wink*

oki... 4.40pm. stomach growling already. Gotta packed up & get ready to leave.

Long awaited Mahjong with the girls this Sun thru 2007!!! Come $$$ Come... Yeah!!!

LoneLy X'Mas

Tiring last week...

NOthing much happened... except Jun's belated B-day Celebration [eh-hem... where are the photos???]
Pulled a trick on them... tt's all.
Went to:
New Asia Bar - not bad. Nice ambience.. food not bad.. service.. erm..
Went to Zouk/Phuture after nth years... Disappointing... =(

Was feeling faint & nausea on fri.. due to exhaustion I guess or maybe that unintended news that caught me unaware . . . move on...

Mum's dinner dissipated all signs of sickness.

Work... normal
Sch... still as disgusting but nvm... Endure!

Nothing on for this weekend except for the funeral.

Still raining...

Boring...

sighhhh...

Typical Day

i'm so bored that I've clicked the "send & receive" every 5mins. Hence, I decided to blog. The past 2 week have been a blast, rushing here & there dunno busy with what.

When you are so used to sleeping at 9.30pm every evening, I'm now suffering from the aftermath of the activities as I slept less than 5hrs for the past 14days. Effect: I literally dozed off when i'm sitting down and not doing anything - bus/mrt journey to work, to sch, to home, at work (esp like now when there's absolutely nothing to do!) The sleepiness is so bad that I could not even control... eyelids just get heavier and heavier... before I can stop myself from dozing off, I woke up! Sigh... I believe diet has an issue with this exhaustion too. My period came last week & as everyone knows, menstruation actually snapped iron in the body. Although i managed to replenish it with pig's kidneys & liver, somehow it doesnt seem to be very effective. ahaha! Also, i think i cannot live w/o rice. This week, i think my rice intake level is the lowest from months. Without it, I can't sleep well. Maybe that's why my tear duct got blocked again. GGGRrrr...
Or could be lessons over stimulate my brain so much so that I need some time to wind down before I can rest completely. Maybe is those crappy websites?! hahaah!!!

Due to extreme boredom at work (U can't blame me. I tried to find stuff to do but there's none. Small company.. cannot help it lah. I'm even fully prepared for 2007!) & yet I can't sleep here, The tendency to web/blog surf started to increase. ho ho ho... but i have sufficient integrity not to surf porn... hahaha! Did I?! Dunno lah.. anyway i clear history everyday... hahahaa!

Saw my cousin's blog. Either I'm outdated or there's seriously some issues with youngsters nowadays. Nothing wrong with drinking or smoking. It's their freedom of choice. But I find it so weird, No need so drama-mama bah! haha... Maybe bcos like all adults, we usually denied others around us have grown up. That will mean we are getting older bah! hahah..

Mum is back home after 2 days in the hospital. The impact of Life without Mum is so much greater than Life without Dad at home. Probably cos I'm all alone.[Qi went hostel while Min was sent to Auntie's hse. No 1 can entertain her lah]
- had to prepare 2 alarms. End up i wake up waiting for the alarm to ring instead of being waken up by it.
- left home with empty-stomached, reached home with empty-stomached, slept with empty-stomached. I had 3 miserable microwave-heated hotdogs for dinner last night. No bread liao Dad never say. To make the sitaution more ironic, I fed the goldfishes while my stomach was growling. kaoz.
- Try to recycle my clothes, deduce the laundry. I don't want to get a shock from ironing clothes on weekends.
- breathe stinks cos there's no one to talk to at all! Directly worsen my already-retarded speech. Even Qi says i'm more articulate online than offline. Sigh...
- When laughing while watching Project Runway, my inner thoughts call myself "Siao!" Laughter got echo somemore leh! Haha!

Sidenote:
Wah lau... scary. My boss came back so suddenly. Heng ar, I calm enough to click minimise and not the X. Ah bo... effort down the drain. Hahaa... but i thnk he know i not anything. Blow, maybe there goes my salary increment & bonus! [horoscopes this few days keep saying i'll get pay raise, PUI lor!]
Ok.. 45mins to go. Gonna return the long overdue book (dunno how much they going to fine me) & back home to a proper dinner & long awaited sleep. =)

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

Exactly 30 DAYS to my DOUBLE 2 ANNIVERSARY!

365 DAYS nearer to my DEATH!

Ok.. I'm being ANAL I know. Whahahaa!!!

Been busy the last week bcos of the Part IVA of the GREATEST events of the YEAR. Hahaa.. Darling Jun's b-day.

[cant think of the theme yet, after Piscean Party & Cancerian Celebration.] Give me sometime to think... hahaa!

Where are the PICS??? Give me, give me!!!

Down Memory Lane

It's DECEMBER & I'm feeling reminiscencing...

HaHaHa!!!

Check out the photo gallery by the side! =)

Ants are MYOPIC & the FLU

After days of observation & scrunity of the ant's network due to extreme boredom @ work, i've come to a conclusion that ANTS are MYOPIC. The moment they see food... they are fast to respond but in a pointless way, i.e. fighting their way through the clear plastic that hold the food.
Have you ever try to eat as quickly as you can so that you can finish it before the ants make their attack? Well... I did. I literally gobbled down my bread, fruits, lunch these few days because the ants come so quickly and in MOB somemore. Gross....

Anyway, the flu resulted in a retardation in my taste bud so it doesn't matter if I can slowly enjoy my food, for I can't! One thing good about having flu is the continous sneezes increase the frequencies of facial movement, so much so like exercising my facial muscles, thus making it firmer. Conclusion: I saw distinct jawline this morning! The sames jawline that disappeared for quite sometime.... hahahah...

Did I mentioned that I'm having a fever too?! In case you are wondering about incoherence and nonsenses that prevail in this entry. Also, the difficulty of breathing also means that less oxygen in my brain, resulting in a little malfunction Ho Ho Ho!!!

The usage of PINK fonts roughly suggests degree of seriousness of my sickness. Hahaha...!

AH-CHOOOooo!!!

9.30am 1st Sneeze - Nah... Dust...

10.15am 2nd-5th Sneezes - Hmm... Who is cursing me?

2.30pm 6th - 13th Sneezes - Ok... something is not right. Glup down gallons of water & flush down gallons of water

3.30pm 14th - infinty Sneezes - Kaozzz! Siao liao lor... mucus flowing down... throat is icky. AH-CHOOOoooo!

Conclusion: I'm SICK. SUX!!!!

Yea.. I'm so boliao that I actually track my sneezes & blog twice in 4hrs!!! Nothing happening today except that I accidentally locked myself outside the office. Cause the maid to make other trip to open the door for me in vain because my boss got contingency plan. Whahaha!!!

Suddenly the downside of this work dawned on me. I realised I can hardly response to conversations properly. By properly I meant to answer Ok! Damm... this is serious... when the tenants ask me why i'm standing outside... My 1st response will be "huh? erm... Oh! ey.. I blah blah blah... " When they asked if I want to sit inside their office for the time being... all i did was to shake my head vigorously (as if they asked if i want to eat poison) rather than explaining to them I need to pick up calls from the outside. SIGH.... WHY? WHY? WHY? Long were the days when I can talk nineteen to the dozen, argue with teachers LOGICALLY & make smart sarcastic remarks. Yeah.... the caustic capricorn is no longer acidic. My mind went blank when my OB lecturer ask me how I find the text. I couldn't even utter a word intelligently. My closed door approach has hit me hard. Jiat lat...

21st yr doesn't seem to be as exciting as what was anticipated. Somehow, all the effects of my past behavior snowballed & hit me all at once.
fatter, uglier, hagard, becoming mute, nerdy, social-less (note: not unsociable. is ppl ignore me, not the other way) , friendless, getting detestable soon i guess & STupid. What a life! Whoo-hoo!
I should have step forward when the motorbike was coming at 90km/h. Should have drank the entire bottle of dettol when I thought of it. Should have jump off the cable car when i was at Genting. Whahahaa.... Getting Emo again.

Oh yes... i'm still sneezing continously & sniffling too.

4.30pm now... get ready to GO!!!!

LIFE IS GOOD. =)

Dreamzzz

Capricorn -
A rather upsetting dream could disturb your sleep tonight, dear Capricorn. When you awaken and get focused in the real world, it may seem so bizarre it isn't worthy of any serious consideration. Nonetheless, write it down later, and after some time has passed go over the symbols and see what they suggest to you. The dream is trying to tell you something about a specific situation in your life - albeit in a rather weird way!

Last night, I had a weird dream. I dreamt that I was driving very fast on a endless road. Sitting beside me was someone (cant see the face, too blurred) who was bleeding profusely. I guess i was eager to reach the hospital. Suddenly I saw several army trucks & an ambulance in front & I tried to race ahead to get it's attention. It seem to be leaving but my car somehow slowly down, like fuel running low. In a effort to get help, I throw my passenger on the side road so that the car can move faster. (It's a dream yah... so no logic.) Amazingly, the medic manage to stitch up the person very quickly. Thereafter, I started driving again. The car did not have any problem (as i said, it's dream yah) then as I try to make a turn... BANG! right into a huge tree!

I swear I could feel the impact as I woke up with a shock! So strange... I thought I just dozed off... can dream so quickly?! I look at the clock... 6.07am. To sleep for 8hrs & doesn't feel like you've slept is WORSE than being knock by a car. sianzzz...

So what do you think this dream is telling to tell me?

Ahhem

Just returned from muggging session with Leng & Ting @woodlands library. Obviously I got a bit distracted as i suddenly tot of refining by TO-DO List. As accord to Leng, I always managed to come up with some excuses not to dress up myself. Not excuses ok.. is really don't have the occasion or situation = the need to. Anyway she is partially right as in I don't dress up. But i always think once u start, maintenance fee will snow-balled, like owning a car. BUT I realised can invest in something that's more lasting & do within my means. YUP... so here is my updated to buy list!
Do new specs... just the lens also can. Aldy cannot make it... --> MUZ BE ANTI-FOG
- A new hairstyle... at least do something to make it more managable than the current fizzy/brittle/damn dry mop --> Got an idea from Ting. Rebond the lower ends.
- at least 2 pairs of jeans. I only got... can you believe... 5 bottoms! N they are not consider decent to Leng. Hahaha! --> Maybe can consider other kinds of pants?!
- Some tops... no more polo tees (they get out of shape so fast!) no ah-sohs tops also. Where to get v-neck tops that are not SO REVEALING?!!! sianzzz..... --> I thinking of getting buttoned tops, similar to the black one I have.
- Get some accessories?! Hmm... KIV. =p

Ok... guess that's all for now. hahaha... List might gets longer. hahaa! See how much I can achieve lah! HAhaha....

Thanksgiving...

Yep... all the ang mohs are all on holiday... meaning there isn't much for me to do. Few minutes ago, I was battling with thousands of ants that invaded into my food ration. Not mine technically, lady boss bought for me to eat for dinner lesson day. It's 3pm now... n i'm happily eating a 'wife's biscuit' that was spared from the attack. Hahaha!

Realise 2006 is going to be over soon?!!! This year seem to zooooooommmmmm by. It seems like i was still celebrating my 21st b-day & b4 u knew it... it's 50 days to my 22nd b-day. OH NO!!! I can feel the mid-quarter life crisis panic attack!!! Erm... of course, we still have 1 more 21st celebration to go... for Jun. hahaha...

Anyway... i got my new year resolutions drafted out. Bcoz Blogger ate my old blog, i can't remember what i wrote last year for 2006, cannot tally =( Anyone remember? Hahaha! Technically speaking... this is something I want to achieve/get my hands on/buy b4 I turned 22, which is like ard the corner?!!! Gasps... try lah hor. Kekeke...

- Do new specs... just the lens also can. Aldy cannot make it...
- A new hairstyle... at least do something to make it more managable than the current fizzy/brittle/damn dry mop
- at least 2 pairs of jeans. I only got... can you believe... 5 bottoms! N they are not consider decent to Leng. Hahaha!
- Some tops... no more polo tees (they get out of shape so fast!) no ah-sohs tops also. Where to get v-neck tops that are not SO REVEALING?!!! sianzzz.....
- pocket size thesaurus. Used to have 1 but it was taken from my locker & never came back. AJCians are losers lah... they steal dictionaries & ten-years series. Bleh...
- Gotta wear my heels more frequently.. even though they hurt like hell!!! (Put vaseline, put vaseline, put vaseline)
- Get out of the 3-steps basic facial regime. I'm not joking... but there are fine lines on my forehead & uneven tones. No wonder every1 keep saying I look HAGGARD. Sigh....
Any recommendations, ppl?
- Moisturise religiously... apply to heels & wear socks to bed. (It works, ok!)
- Don't break the Saturday routine with Jamie.
- Study conscientiously... I cannot just pass, muz do well. If not, I'll do wrong to my SAVINGS A/C!!!

After this listing... i realise i need more $$$ than time. Hahaha.... I'm not greedy. I just want 1 month bonus will do.... (Civil Servant get 2.2mths, ok! I thinking of joing them too...even if it means boring... hahaha)

ok... 2 more hrs to end of work. Later still got to go Unicampus for a seminar... & it's like in Faraway QUEENSTOWN!!! sigh.... b4 that... back to 2005 accounts. So shity... been trying to clear it for few months liao still haven sort it out.

Btw... I WANT TO GO VIVOCITY!!! I think i'm the last suaku who have't go there... so sad.

Sidenote: I'm listening to 933 oldies now. When Aaron Kwok's mandarin was sucky but popular like nobody's biz... when Cecilia Chung tried to sing... when Takeshi Kaneshiro (Jin Cheng Wu) still sings, when Alex To doesn't strip while singing... So old school. Listen already make me feel so old... hahahah!!!!

Phew!!!

I survived!!!! Hahaa... this is only the 1st week and I already got the momentum going. Whoo-hooo... POWER! Previously i was worried I might suffer from LAG. Since it has been eons since I plunged into proper studying. The tourism dip was easy lah, ok.. so not counted. Haha!
Other than appreciating the fact that I'm a Singaporean Chinese... Kiasuism plays a part here, ok?!... I'm taking this opportunity to SHOUT a BIG "THANK YOU" to my darling gals!!! got the following:

Jun's smses & msns... Sweetie U yah! *wink* Also, the mugging session on friday at SMU (she smuggled me in...hahaha)
Ting & her darling YY for picking up for dinner near my sch. Totally eased my 1st day kan-cheong-ness sydrome. U guys r COOL! =) Not forgetting hers & Leng's smses as well as an effectively(inclusive of gossips as well =p) spent saturday in woodlands library mugging with them!

THANK YOU PPL!!!
LIFE WILL NEVER BR THE SAME W/O YOU!!!
LUV U ALL! =)

Sidenote: Jun, will update accordingly yah... Dun worry... ahaha!

Wah!!!

See already feel so embarrassing... last time we played is 3 person together (each in charge 3 keys) & we still lose.. Hahahahaa....

Sidenote: Just rec'd a sms from darling jun, telling me i won't be bored anymore after today, after sch starts. So sweet of her... never fail to sms me the day b4 i've something on. Thanks Girl!

Boredom... (2)

Yea... How Bored can one be?

Woke up at 8.30am. I didn't want to sleep till my usual sunday afternoon in case I cant sleep tonight & I have a freaking long day tmr. Watch Baby Loony Tunes... how familar. wanted to catch Tom & Jerry ytd but gotta go out.

Mum & Dad went out to choose the tiles for the kitchen. Yup, we are finally renovating the place after 19 long years. I spent the morning teaching little one push-ups & sit-ups & perfecting her amatuer cart-wheels. Then went to the petrol station to pay dad's fine at the AXS . Then mopped the floor (see how desperate i was for something to do) but was eventually usurped by Min. Bleh.... She is bored too I guess....


Contracter came with Mum & Dad to take measurement. I spent the rest of the afternoon going online, offline, online, offline... Then mum & min went out for grocery shopping. I decided to take a nap. Yea... too bored already. Nothing to do online either. Yet my nap was interupted 3 times. First next-door neighbour came with home-made goreng pisang. Not bad lah... quite nice. Then.. phone call from Keith - aka Jamie's irritating classmate who call almost several times everyday. wah lau... how can some parents let young children have mobile phone. even if u don't mind them jacking up the phone bills with nonsensical calls.. I really very MIND picking up those calls.

Lastly, was the sudden convectional rain. Boooo.... so much for napping.


When i finally dozed off... mum came back. All my ZZZZZ mood gone liao. Sigh...

I spent the rest of the evening blog surfing... how pathetic.... =(


If you're yawning by now... you're forgiven. This entry is not meant to be INTERESTING.


Next week shall not be the same I hope... I'm praying for a psychotic lecturer who gives endless readings. So that I don't have to spend my weekends moping in self misery, self deception, self denial... fantasizing on impossible-to-come-true dreams & wild imaginations...

I'm serious... seriously.

流汗的感觉真好！！！

HO HO HO! As the title suggests... I did some physical activity today! Please... 别想歪歪！
I brought little one to Yishun Park today with surprising relevations. No pics though coz my phone decided to die on me this morning.
On our way there... I propose a race with her. 我的打击很大 LEH！！！
She is AS FAST AS ME ! Shocking Leh... Somemore when we stopped, she was giggling n walking normally while I was PANTING like a old cow. Kaozzz!
We went to have breaskfast 1st then mum proceed home with her market load. She literally 'cheong' to the monkey bar. Before i reach, she already cleared 1 round of monley climbing. Wah!!! 2nd 打击. I can never do monkey bar in my entire life lor... not even when young! All i can do is flip myself upside down & hang like a baby opossum. Bleh... I'm so lousy.
Anyway, she fell down backwards on the swing while trying to adjust her butt. Luckily impact no very big cos she was quite close to the sandy ground. However, she had a bad fall while trying to land on the finishing platform of the monkey bar later. Backward fall again & I saw her back hitting the platform. Goodness lor... I was so terrified. In that split seconds, all sorts of thoughts ran through my mind. " Concussion? Paralysed? Retarded? " Pui Pui Pui, choy choy choy... touch wood leh!
She teared for 1 minute.. stood up herself. Then went back to the monkey bar AGAIN! Wah lau... so relentless leh. 真是初生之犊不怕虎！But can see that her confidence got a bit shattered... she insist I hold her legs while she cross. Diao... end up I became a cheesy cheerleader for the next half an hr, trying to encourage her to cross herself. Eventually, we figure out that she is tired lah. So we make our way home. Since i was wearing my track shoes (it was kinda dusty when i pulled out =p) I decided to slow jog home. I was at my usual speed (U all know how 'fast' lah hor) & Jamie Lim can follow my pace EFFORTLESSLY! Wah 3rd 打击!!! She can talk at the same time while I was at my 'old cow panting".
Really 老了... siao liao. So unfit... sigh... I promise her I'll bring her out more often. Can see that she really enjoyed herself despite the fall. 1st time I feel that I'm a good sister. hahah... must be sub-consciously influence by that "7 Habits" book I've been reading recently.

Afternoon, went central to have lunch. Little one finish up her portion, which is rare. Guess she muz be damn starving after that strenuous morning. Did I mentioned I got niam by Dad when I decide to be honest about Jamie's fall?! Yeah... luckily I siam fast. But I believe I'll probably be hearing the same thing 3 mths down the road. Damn...

Oh yah.... the kiasu sister of hers, i.e. ME, bought her a Primary 2 maths assessment book. Shit.. i'm turning into those kiasu parents!!! No lah... not stress her lah. She might be bored during the hols mah... anyway when i was at her age I spent my holidays reading next yrs' textbooks. That's y i can be top 10 everyyear except P4. Ho Ho Ho!! [yea.. showing off. but after tt in sec & jc also top 10, but is count from the bottom... boo...]

Today has been fruitful... so far. I helped my mum with dinner preparation & also made yam cake. Hmm... so nice. [Qi: Don't be jealous ok! It's purely coincidental that we also cook good food when u're not ard. Did i mentioned we had mini abalone too?! ahaha!]

Jamie is sleeping now... I bit worry actually. She don't take naps unless she is not feeling well. But when i check on her just now... she can still 'tsk' me leh. should be ok right?! hahaha...

OK...this is a long entry since my b-day entry (which ate up by blogger... sobzzz)

Going for my fabulous, delicious dinner. Buai =)

Stupid leh

It's 11.23am... & I'm blogging!!! Nope... not MC, not day off. I'm in the office right now. Today, being Friday, more or less in the pre-weekend mood. Haha!

The main reason I'm is to KPKB 'bout work stuff. I don't believe this. How can one be so ineffective & inefficient to such extent. I email this executive 6 weeks ago regarding this VERY IMPORTANT freaking form that she has to submit. Thereafter, I sent her some other discrepancies that she has to get back to me asap to avoid delay. Throughout this period, I believe i sent her several reminders & only ONCE that she acknowledged receipt. Call her - always voice mail. *Piang leh*

Today this mysterious person finally call! for some enquries. So I asked her what are the updates for the respective stuff. Guess what's her answer.

"Huh?! what's tt? got meh?" & " I rec'd your email but I wasn't around." & "Last month's? Ohhh.. shit! (softly to herself but I can hear it)"

WTH!!! Ultimate lor... win lor... still need me to re-fresh her memory. She can still tell me she haven't get to that YET! WTF?! Somehow she has YET to see the seriousness of the problem. This is army/military issue. IF she does not confirm with me, I cannot purchase. (If buy 1st later is wrong how? cannot anyhow buy. $$$ leh) Then the airbase won't be able to receive the item by deadline.. they will come KPKB at us.

After getting the situation clear, her tone become very unfriendly. Like i give a lot of work like that. kaozzz! Can even ask me why i bid when I cannot confirm the part#. Wahlau... like the OEM is my father like that. How I know why the change part # for the same item.

She is an executive herself (= degree holder) yet I feel like I'm talking to some temp stuff who just finish their O levels. Not discriminating or condescending but she really give me that attitude tone lor.

Whatever, not going to spoil my mood. ahaha... I only niam here. Later if I tell my boss this, i thnk he is going to niam non stop. If any old bird from the agency calls him, he sure will niam also. Then all I can say to that executive is " Good Luck to your bonus".

p/s: Don't keep asking me this but lesson starts next mon... will update soon. =)

Lagging

Yep... lagging in my entries these days... this is one of those filler post to say im still alive. If there are ppl who DO read my blog... whahaha

nothing much to talk about. was reading HERWORLD ytd.. got this article say Fatigue is due to a lack of IRON & VITAMIN A. Hmm... no wonder i get exhausted so easily for as long as i can remember...
Strangely enough... I'm never a fussy eater... SO HOW COME I GET IRON DEFICIENCY???
accord to the lousy doctor at Changi Hospital, it could probably be due to my heavy menstruation. Maybe true... maybe not since it's not everytime its heavy. Aiya... dunno lah. At least now my hair stays in its place n not over the floor... I guess should be alright lah.

But i need to get over the fatigues-ness soon since school is starting. YES!!! I got my time table the other day. I swore I was ELATED whe i got it... ahaha... anyway it begins on monday 13NOv. Previously there was a typo.

Yeah... something new to keep myself occupied. whahaha!!! Maybe 3mths down the road I wont feel so excited but currently I am lah. hahaah...

so rubbishy... dunno what im talking about.. ahaha.. i'm mad lah..

to the girls: Meeting on WED for dinner. Any suggestions for venue?

Sorry

Can one apologize too much??? Somehow, somewhere, something... Recently, I've been saying this phrase quite frequently, a little too frequent I think.

At work... I apologize to suppliers for failed bids, to buyers for missed deadlines.
At home... I apologize to brat for my harsh tone, to mum for things undone, to sis for disturbing.
At outside, I apologize to friends for misunderstanding, for stood-ups, for upsets, even for certain untruths even...

Sigh... I'm so f***ed up.

Nope... Don't worry. This is NOT an onset of yet another DEPRESSION.

However, not all matters can be solved with just a word of apology. Sometimes, it might be the triggering factor of another headache-ing incident. Yep... I've thrown myself into an situation. This is not very good for a person who is SO EVER INDECISIVE. I HATE myself for being such an ASSHOLE. So much said about my hideous character... wahahahaha. I'm going crazy...

It is not my intention to keep you all in suspense. BUT give me some time to sort out this issue before I bare it all out to you all. I haven't quite figure out the whole scenario currently...

Jun: I wasn't kidding when I say I want your life. Hahaha...

Right now... I wished I can bury myself in tons & tons of school work, like complex calculus or a 4000 word essay (at least I gain from it intelluctually!!!) rather than cracking my brain cells over such affairs which just further complicate & smudge my life. Oh bother...

Maybe, perhaps, possible that things are not that perplexing as what I've assumed. Considering the frequency that being shunned at on MSN. Could it be coincidental or it just plainly that i've evolved into such unlikeable & annoying person?

3 more weeks to the start of course... not excited but I can't wait for it to begin. For then, I swear I'll throw everything behind & focus. I know I'm capable of that as I did it before & I can do it again...

雨天

x日x月

我的心情跟 窗外阴霾 的天空一样， 朦 朦胧胧。 乌云笼罩的天空看不到一丝 曙光， 沉重的心情看不见一点希望。。。这一次，想必又 没得救了。因为我是一个不会U-转的人。。。

“开心就好，别因一时的失控而把喜剧 变成 悲剧”

没想到周刊星座专栏所说的都 应验了。真是人算不如天算。 命中注定就不能改变。缘分已尽就不能强求。 冥冥中自有安排。。。 这样也好，不需要挣扎于现实与 虚构， 不需要被谎言而受尽困扰。 我只想抛开心中一切杂念，简简单单的生活。

“这个世界是很简单的。只是, 人喜欢在不知不觉中把事情变得复杂。。。”

而我 偏偏就是那个不知不觉 把 每一件事 复杂化的人。结果搞到这样的结局也是自食其果，都是 应得的报应。 对那些被我无意中伤害的人，我只能由衷的说声 “对不起”。。。。。。

[以上故纯属虚构， 如有雷同， 实属巧合。 请各位当做消遣文章，读完就忘。不要举一反三， 不要胡思乱想， 不要借题发挥。 谢谢！]

Still alive & kicking...

YEP... haven't update for a while I know. Hmm... even Jun is bloging more frequently. Ting.. I know u r busy. Haha =)

Just had a very sumptuous home cooked curry with lontong for dinner. Wah... very full now. ***burppp*** Mum - YOU ARE THE BEST!!!

This week just whoosed by... didn't even realise ytd was Friday. I used to be very sensitive to weekends, for it was LIBERATION from work. Haha!!!

Erm... can't remember what i wanted to blogged about. Hmm... erm... aiya... forget it..

till it struck me... bye for now!!!

heehee!!!

Recently, my sister & I have been wearing the same color polo tee coincidentally on certain morning...

Today... we decide to take a photo while on our way out.. using her camera...

in the end... the photo fail to capture the likeness of our tee but drastically enhanced our difference..

We're standing side by side...

Why is LIFE so confusing???

因为人与人之间的关系是很复杂的。。。

我发现眼睛红肿的原因是泪腺阻塞。。。 如果严重的话，可能会损害功能。这样也好。。。也许伤心的时候就不会流泪。

online 看到这。。。

鱼对水说：“我一直在哭泣， 但是你永远都不知道，因为我在水里。”
水说：“我知道，因为你一直在我心里。”

Guess 很多人就是这样。你认为对方不知道， 不代表他真的不知道！ 有时候，不是每件事都要说 得清清楚楚。有时候是要靠心去领悟的。。。

其实， 这个世界是很简单的。只是， 人们喜欢在不知不觉中把事情变得复杂。。。

Yawnzzz...

I realised it's been 4 days since i last blogged. Seems very long leh...

Anyway, I bunked out yesterday again... with HY & HL from LTA. Dunno y... recently I've many activites that required me to stay out. Coincidences bah...

My swollen right eye from last week recovered on Thurs but after last night, it was left eye's turn. Suay...

Haha... my family are watching that 'old sch' vcd again with 1st auntie & uncle. There's a scene where the lead actor had an erection at the brothel & trying to hide embarrassingly with that constipated look on his face. Then minmin asked why. My auntie replied almost immediatedly, " Oh?! He wants to shit." Whahahaa!!! KIDS...

Qn of the day (been buzzed by HY this qn for the entire morning):

Why do some people grind their teeth when they
sleep?

[To Jun: saw ur comment. no worries lah... I'm still sane & logical. =)]

Boohoo...

Today seemed very mythical... especially on my way home. Nope... didn't encounter any queer events. It's the HAZE lah... so foggy... I thought i was dreaming lor but the foulness of the smoke was too much...

can't write much today... my eyes is swollen. Could be due to contact lens... could be the HAZE!!!

!#$%^&*

惨了！！！

今天，我老板对我说，“老板娘快疯了。。。为了不要让她 胡思乱想， 我决定让她早点来公司帮忙。
孩子的事就 由我接手。所以，让她 做你的 basic work ， 你就 take over 我的 basic work。 ”

我的反应：　嘴里说　“哦！”　心想　“靠！这样，　我可以也 take over 你的薪水吗？！”

之后，老板就跟我罗罗嗦嗦说了一大堆。。。i think 他 有可能他会先疯？！

whatever it is...虽然我觉得老板很可怜，我想我也很可怜。　 I think 我也会疯。。。 Oh no！！！　如果真的是这样，大家别感到意外！　

啊哈哈哈哈哈啊哈哈哈哈！！！　

PS: I email you all the photos le. Actually can copy from here also. Don't complain le yah?! =)

爱情的字典里找不到永远。。。

Getting emo nowadays... muz be due to the periodic discharge of blood and mucosal tissue from the uterus, occurring approximately monthly.
Was watching this HK drama serials just now... totally amazed & bewildered at how one (man & woman) can sacrifice in the name of LOVE. It's just insanity but rare in reality. I got a little too engrossed in it... but was later distracted by Lara Croft on ch5... hahaha!!!

Heard Sun Yanzi's song just now on radio & it's been ringing in my ears ever since... crap.

Although everything seems very peaceful around me... I think it got a little bit too calm. I'm hard to please i know... When when when can I find the life I truly enjoy???
Becoz' of cramps & late nights last week, I spent the whole day lying on my bed. Been thinking alot, don't worry... Not those 胡思乱想 like before. More of reflections of the past year. Sigh... haven really figure it out totally yet... so not going to write anything down 1st... =)

Haze has dissipated... thank goodness!!! Eyes got infected bcos of that... kaozzzz!!!

Saturday

Basically slept the whole day today... Haze is making me very lethargic...

Anyway... people please take note - Haze means there's presence of large amount impurites in the air. Hence, try not to leave food out in the open for too long. Especially for cooked food as they will turn bad easily in this kind of unnatural phenomemen.

Watch vcd with mum just now... VERY old school movie. Fwah!!! Quite surprised still got vcd for old movies like this. I grew up watching those hongkong vampires/horror/kungfu movies, taiwanese army flicks & comedies. It was only in sec sch that i started to watch hollywoods more.
Sigh... those were the days...

Met up with a friend recently then it suddenly dawned to us that we knew each other for almost a year already. How time files... Despite the fact that I also met up with the LTA bunches whom i met even earlier, there are more of acquaintances. I even swore to myself I won't atend any kind of such senseless gatherings again coz it is just plain meaningless & boring. Guess, FATE & AFFINTY play a part too in FRIENDSHIPS. This is just my style, i believe. Once I see one as a friend, it's friends for life. Loyalty is a trait of Capricorn. =)

Mid-Autumn

This year's Mid-Autumn has been especially hazy... bcoz instead of carrying lanterns, SG's neighbours prefer to torch their forests. They forgot that " Fire is a good servant but a bad master"
真是的！月到中秋分外朦！！！
Anyway... pictures from last night.


Our nth Mid-Autumn together!!!

hmm... Sweet Subtle =)

Wah!!! 1 word - 靓！

Ops! no flash...

It's the haze... really... ... make our face so oily looking.

Happy Mid-Autumn's Festival!!!

Happenstance II

Part II... after

DEPRESSION
bleakness, blowout, blues, bummer, cheerlessness, dejection, desolation, desperation, despondency, disconsolation, discouragement, dispiritedness, distress, dole, dolefulness, dolor, downheartedness, dreariness, dullness, dumps, ennui, gloominess, heavyheartedness, hopelessness, lowness, lugubriosity, melancholia, melancholy, misery, mortification, qualm, sadness, sorrow, trouble, unhappiness, woefulness, worry

&

APATHETIC
callous, cold, cool, draggy*, drippy, emotionless, flat, impassive, indifferent, insensible, laid back, languid, moony*, passive, stoic, stolid, uncaring, unconcerned, unemotional, unfeeling, uninterested, unmoved, unresponsive, untouched, wimpy*

but still

SARCASTIC
acerb, acrimonious, cutting, harsh, incisive, pithy, pungent, rough, salty, satiric, scathing, severe, sharp, stinging, succinct, trenchant, virulent


Actually, the triggering factor for this new blog is GOOGLE ate my old blog!!!
Guess it's time already... ...