hmm.... i'm not addicted to chocolate. On the contrary, i think i should stay away from chocolate.
Never like chocolates of any sort, for those who know me well. Don't mind to have a bit occasionally....
i always tot bananas have an uncanny effect on me... but i think i should stay away from chocolates too. ....
Went crazy after the brownie cake last fri... the scary part is i've totally have no control over it. ...
It only hit me that i was not alright like the next day?! gosh... it's worse that alcohol.. at most some rashes & KO...
So dreadful.... urps...
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
anger
Saturday, March 21, 2009
So so so so so so so so so so so so Angry with myself...
took things too lightly this sem... poor time mgmt... arrogance...
left 20mins after the exam commenced this morning...
cannot answer anything... with lack of knowledge even crapping skills failed.
puke until my guts flipped...
so pissed, so mad...
2 years of hard work down the drain... there goes my 1c or maybe 21c... maybe I'll end up with such a ordinary useless qualification... exactly like before. How Great...
Got my 1st borderline marks last sem, didn't learn the lesson.
By the time I panicked... too many unanticipated happenings impeded the planned.....
spent too much at work, on non value-adding stuff.
I'm in a constant dilemma with myself on this...
don't like the fact that work got distributed out.. yet I don't have the time or even capability perhaps to handle... too many nitty-gritty stuffs to sort.. diluted focus... poor planning... inability to multi-task....
want to excel but can't/unable... should I just don't care... need to sort out this internal doubt/struggle...
Are these reasons or excuses, i wonder... maybe i'm just not up to it... all these higher level of work or studies... i'm just a mediocre... time to end those self deceptions... hhahaha...
Inefficiencies, procrastinations, depressed... gosh... it's all coming back....i hate this.
i hate the lack of control... the lack of system in my life... i hate myself..
i sux.
took things too lightly this sem... poor time mgmt... arrogance...
left 20mins after the exam commenced this morning...
cannot answer anything... with lack of knowledge even crapping skills failed.
puke until my guts flipped...
so pissed, so mad...
2 years of hard work down the drain... there goes my 1c or maybe 21c... maybe I'll end up with such a ordinary useless qualification... exactly like before. How Great...
Got my 1st borderline marks last sem, didn't learn the lesson.
By the time I panicked... too many unanticipated happenings impeded the planned.....
spent too much at work, on non value-adding stuff.
I'm in a constant dilemma with myself on this...
don't like the fact that work got distributed out.. yet I don't have the time or even capability perhaps to handle... too many nitty-gritty stuffs to sort.. diluted focus... poor planning... inability to multi-task....
want to excel but can't/unable... should I just don't care... need to sort out this internal doubt/struggle...
Are these reasons or excuses, i wonder... maybe i'm just not up to it... all these higher level of work or studies... i'm just a mediocre... time to end those self deceptions... hhahaha...
Inefficiencies, procrastinations, depressed... gosh... it's all coming back....i hate this.
i hate the lack of control... the lack of system in my life... i hate myself..
i sux.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Friday 13th
Friday, March 13, 2009
yet another friday the 13th...a sombre one...
my youngest uncle passed away this morning... was in the news
like my eldest uncle 2yrs back... also in the news...
life's so unfair... how can tragedy struck this family twice... lost their mum decade back... now their dad...
life sux...
stay strong, my couzs...
my youngest uncle passed away this morning... was in the news
like my eldest uncle 2yrs back... also in the news...
life's so unfair... how can tragedy struck this family twice... lost their mum decade back... now their dad...
life sux...
stay strong, my couzs...
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Whiplash effect
Sunday, March 01, 2009
TMD... woke with soreness all about my body... like kenna hit by car like tt...
BUT... felt better today in terms of spirit...
Spent 2 hrs at northpoint just now (very discipline... kept to the time schedule)
- the same bus came in 3mins. (see lah, when u suay, everything is suay. see previous post)
- get to eat what i want to eat (prata sausage and cone pizza)
- bought what i want to buy (3 pairs of shoes)
- black shawl (this is just retail therapy, $10 anything lah)
- only spoiler was this cashier (code3). they put this $10 insole on the $5 rack, obviously I'll assume it is $5 right?! when i realized it was $10 when she scanned, obviously I say I dun want lah. when I return with the correct $5 one, she was giving me that pek chek look saying next time must check the pricing, if not very troublesome for her. (note: troublesome, not difficult)
*** i was completely bewildered lor. how complicated can it get to void an item??? sometimes double scan also need to void right... not that she hit the enter key already. Moreover, I'm the customer leh. Plus, I was really apologetic..... furthermore the store manager was there and she saw everything.
Learn from your manager lah... she came up to me when i went back to take the correct one and assisted me with the different kinds of the insole, how to clean them and reuse etc.... She even explained probably a customer place it wrongly and apologized that they didn't noitce it in time and hence my incovenience.
it was because of the manager that I was subtle in my reply to that cashier. I told her i was mistaken and people do made mistakes and I've already apologized. If she need to explain to the management I can verify for her. My last sentence " You don't have to give me that face, you know".
At least I didn't say the cliche one, 'I'm the customer leh, I'm always RIGHT!' hahahhahaha =)
ok.. back to info crunching....
BUT... felt better today in terms of spirit...
Spent 2 hrs at northpoint just now (very discipline... kept to the time schedule)
- the same bus came in 3mins. (see lah, when u suay, everything is suay. see previous post)
- get to eat what i want to eat (prata sausage and cone pizza)
- bought what i want to buy (3 pairs of shoes)
- black shawl (this is just retail therapy, $10 anything lah)
- only spoiler was this cashier (code3). they put this $10 insole on the $5 rack, obviously I'll assume it is $5 right?! when i realized it was $10 when she scanned, obviously I say I dun want lah. when I return with the correct $5 one, she was giving me that pek chek look saying next time must check the pricing, if not very troublesome for her. (note: troublesome, not difficult)
*** i was completely bewildered lor. how complicated can it get to void an item??? sometimes double scan also need to void right... not that she hit the enter key already. Moreover, I'm the customer leh. Plus, I was really apologetic..... furthermore the store manager was there and she saw everything.
Learn from your manager lah... she came up to me when i went back to take the correct one and assisted me with the different kinds of the insole, how to clean them and reuse etc.... She even explained probably a customer place it wrongly and apologized that they didn't noitce it in time and hence my incovenience.
it was because of the manager that I was subtle in my reply to that cashier. I told her i was mistaken and people do made mistakes and I've already apologized. If she need to explain to the management I can verify for her. My last sentence " You don't have to give me that face, you know".
At least I didn't say the cliche one, 'I'm the customer leh, I'm always RIGHT!' hahahhahaha =)
ok.. back to info crunching....
belated Fri13th?! SUX!!!
I conclude today 28Feb09 is the unluckiest day of my life...
Woke up to find up toothbrush missing, ended up it was knocked by the mop by got stuck behind the toilet bowl... shit... throw...
Can't find my mirror
Can't find my jeans...
mental block... can't write anything for the report
saved the wrong part of my report...
SO SO SO frustrated that I slammed the table twice, kick my bed thrice!!!
waited 10mins for a bus...
got stuck beside a BO guy in the train...
got caught in this ULTRA heavy rain from dhoby ghaut to koven
shoes is giving way & i've no time to get new ones
had a lousy dinner with people that got me 'raising brows' every now and then
WORSE of the worse: slipped and fell along the pavement and landed besides the stinkin' dumpster with the whole world staring at you. how nice... -_-'''
WORSE WORSE of the worse: got nagged by the folks how I should have walked slower. this is so unjust... i was walking very slowly, intending to go to the concrete path and away from the tiled pavement cos I knew my shoes cannot make it. it was aldy squishy squashy from the rain earlier.... like I want to slip against the rubbish bin like tt.... haiz...
STUPID!!!!
I got this FUJI APPLE SIZED BUMP on my butt now.... it better subside by thursday....
can't imagine when the plane started to land..... gosh...
speaking of which.... i'm going to BKK on Thursday but I havent got a proper shoe to wear, havent pack my stuff, no toothbrush, no nice nice clothes for the agenda, no $$$
PLUS report only 30% done... need to hand in 60% for review on coming MONDAY
got lesson on on and tues
PLUS exams in 1 mth's time, with NO revision notes made or planned.
PLUS gotta read 200+ notes for an important meeting on coming MONDAY
I'm so screwed.... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH
WARNING: will be in extremely pesky/irritated/lousy/angsty mood this few days. if you can't help me, stay out till next week. THANK you!
Woke up to find up toothbrush missing, ended up it was knocked by the mop by got stuck behind the toilet bowl... shit... throw...
Can't find my mirror
Can't find my jeans...
mental block... can't write anything for the report
saved the wrong part of my report...
SO SO SO frustrated that I slammed the table twice, kick my bed thrice!!!
waited 10mins for a bus...
got stuck beside a BO guy in the train...
got caught in this ULTRA heavy rain from dhoby ghaut to koven
shoes is giving way & i've no time to get new ones
had a lousy dinner with people that got me 'raising brows' every now and then
WORSE of the worse: slipped and fell along the pavement and landed besides the stinkin' dumpster with the whole world staring at you. how nice... -_-'''
WORSE WORSE of the worse: got nagged by the folks how I should have walked slower. this is so unjust... i was walking very slowly, intending to go to the concrete path and away from the tiled pavement cos I knew my shoes cannot make it. it was aldy squishy squashy from the rain earlier.... like I want to slip against the rubbish bin like tt.... haiz...
STUPID!!!!
I got this FUJI APPLE SIZED BUMP on my butt now.... it better subside by thursday....
can't imagine when the plane started to land..... gosh...
speaking of which.... i'm going to BKK on Thursday but I havent got a proper shoe to wear, havent pack my stuff, no toothbrush, no nice nice clothes for the agenda, no $$$
PLUS report only 30% done... need to hand in 60% for review on coming MONDAY
got lesson on on and tues
PLUS exams in 1 mth's time, with NO revision notes made or planned.
PLUS gotta read 200+ notes for an important meeting on coming MONDAY
I'm so screwed.... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH
WARNING: will be in extremely pesky/irritated/lousy/angsty mood this few days. if you can't help me, stay out till next week. THANK you!
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