Dedication =)

Especially For Zijun... who was unable to join us that day. Meaningful Lyrics... =)

第一次见面看你不太顺眼谁知道后来关系那么密切

我们一个像夏天一个像秋天却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪

我背你逃出一次梦的断裂

遇见一个人后生命全改变

原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信

朋友比情人还死心塌地

就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰

你也不会恨我

只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定

朋友比情人更懂得倾听

我的弦外之音 我的有口无心

我离不开 Darling 更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西

才常泼我冷水怕我忘形

你知道我所有丢脸的事情

却为我的美好形象保密

如果不是你我不会相信

朋友比情人还死心塌地

就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰

你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定

朋友比情人更懂得倾听

我的弦外之音 我的有口无心

我离不开 Darling 更离不开你

Sad... Boowhooo...

Results came in yesterday.

Some knew it before they came to class last night becuase they have the luxury to be at home during the day.

I failed my expectations... sucks.. I see the ABC i sianz...

Worse still, i got this msg early this morning. It was sent last night @ 2250hrs from N.

N: " yo ger, how's ur result? I very disappointed with my accounting lor, got B. "

Me - replied this morning: (Must she do this?!) "I also very very disappointed with my accounts. But all pass lah."

N: So what's ur grade? Me AAB. but both low A

Me: (+_+''' Felt slapped in the face) Acc C, Stats B, OB A. So u must be smiling now lah?

N: Okie lah. I studied very hard for this 3 subjects?

Me: So I shld learn from u how to study hor, instead of u asking me qn in the class everytime hor?! Ha ha ha...

N: okie lah. I think i typco (???) this time. Let's study hard for our next exam!

Me: (yah yah yah... when i have 3 modules she has 2 only) Yah... work hard. I see u next mon.
Working now... have a Great Day ahead..

N: Oki.It's friday & midnight shopping.. hehehe.

Sigh... I feel so sucky since last night & this whole conversation make it worse. I know if I don't flushed it out now, i won't be able to focus at work today. 有点，不是，是很多点 不平衡！Everytime she ask me qn i ans, I talk they don't reply or is everything dunno. Feel so 被耍.
I felt so being taken advantage of, worse then kanna molest by Bangrah in the bus. =p Sianz...
Am i being paranoid becoz it seems so 31/02 times or I must say " Welcome to the Real World". Bleh...
Don't talk also wrong, pple say u dao. Talk also no one listen other than when they need a favour from u. KNS...
Reminds me of my 老姐's p6 classmate, Delphine. 老姐 teach her chinese when she in doubt but 老姐 asked her about maths,, she asked 老姐 don't disturb her. WTF right?!

Thankfully, I got that " Narrate-&-Forget-Everything kind of Goldfish memory".

Those who know me well can see & I admit too, I was being very sarcastic throughout the entire conversation. Dunno is she act blur or is really blur, I'm like 以小人之心度君子之腹. Bleh...

Whatever, Whatever, like i always tell Minmin...
不用考满分， 这样才有进步的空间。有尽力，对得起自己和花的钱就好。。。

Must psycho/brainwash/intoxicate myself... Can start Piang for July exam le. Motivation 来了!!!

KanBaTei!!!

For the sake of my SGD21000. Suck that 7%. Lucky got that $600 rebate to cover. Sianz...
Stupid 7% GST, regretted that i never learn driving ealier, complaing abou the fee. Now it's going to be exhorbitant!!!! $200 for the offset like not enough lor... =(

One thing very satisfying is my Sociology got A leh. The annoying, arrogant Ang Moh only got B leh. HAhaha... Shows that my crapping training from those IJ years is still not rusty. Hahah... 宝刀未老 hor... also my sacrasm is back - does it mean i'm recovering my normality? But hor, sian is nobody in the class knows how to appreciate. So boring...

老姐， help me hide my transcript so that I won't think about it anymore. Hahaha...

Felt so much better now... Oki back to work = )

Sidenote: Minmin is so adorable. She saw my transcript & point under the ''attempt'' column.
"Oki what, U all got 1st, 1st, 1st what!" 不知道是该哭还是笑... *o*

P/S: Ting is going SHG today. Hope she manage to get the 白兔糖 for me & jun =）

Aftermath...

Ok.. I'm back! Not dead yet but close to...

The trip to Batam was erm... tedious & literally 'Back-Breaking". No photos coz my nokia decide to take a holiday too.. whaahaha!!! See if can get the cousins to send me?!
Didn't buy much. I only got a Ralph Polo Tee S$35 reluctantly after Mum's insistence cos is "buy 1 get 1 free" & I have to share with another auntie. Sighhhhhhh...
Dad got: 10 mangoes, 2kg chikus, 1 passionfruit (free gift?!), 6 packs of ikan dunno-what, 3 packs of atap chee, a pair of leather shoes & 2 shirts....
While Dad is happy with all the “土产” mum had to suffer with the “ 吐产”of my very suay 妹妹.
坐船晕船，坐车晕车。。
Puke all over in the car, so smelly until the uncle beside us also puke. Sigh...
I had to piggy-back her all the way home... by the time i reach home, i smell sourish also. Did I mentioned she puke again in the taxi ride home. Heng is Dad's good friend, or else sure kanaa tio kan.
Lucky got Sis at home to clear up the mess & cook us dinner.
I can't remember how I make my way to the toilet, bathe, do the 3 steps (or did i not), then plonked down my bed... tired siah...

Told my mum wait for a few more years before we bring minmin out again... =p

Ramblings in the midst of Hetic

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Blogger has auto-save now leh...

Anyway, i had a very crazy morning. So despite the fact that i still have a pile of reports beside me... I need to cool down a little. Otherwise, sure make mistakes...
Trying to regulate my breathing... while recalling what have i did since this morning.

Something i realise after 1 year into this job... my clients all work 1 day a week!!!
They like to keep u bored from monday-thursday while they happily consolidate their work, lumped them all at once to you on FRIDAY!!!

KNS.

The phone rang incessantly non-stop this morning... request for reports, discrepancies, clarification, the everything-also-ask-me accountant called again. If i know then wont need her liao lor. On top of that, enquires regarding those 4 offices yet to be leased out.
Irritating... i hate the ringing sound of that phone.
For a period of time, my hp didn't stop beeping either. Was trying to coordinate my project presentation later with the teammates via sms, discussing about next wed with the girls on sms & msn, reply irene about GSS, cousin called too.

Endless typing on phone & keyboard... not very fun when your shoulders is aching so badly that numbness starting to spread all the way to the arm while your neck feels that it's gonna break any moment.
Irony: I'm typing now too!!! 真是不知死活！

A mixture of feelings arose from those 'conversation', feeling so imbalance now...

Meiyin emailed everyone from Alaska!!! So good... She went there for exchange, working in Hostel Housekeeping. I don't mind doing such chores if i get to fly out of SG.

Even contemplating squeezing into ting's language to SHG. *Sigh*

Sydney jio me to vietnam this end May. Even though i badly want to get out of SG, somehow circumstances doesn't allow me to.
Irene now temping @ TUAS as receptionist. Power lor... jio me go GSS. I say see how 1st.. not sure still got energy left a not... after next week.

Sadly, Jun can't join us for KBox this wed. But happy for her that she finally got her internship at such right timimg, after her widsom tooth surgery.

Annoyed with my teammates for being so "unautomatic". I do both ppt yet still want me to present the bulk. So sianz... i have to act sick (actually really not feeling too good) to siam.

Oki... got to stop here. Can feel the numbness in my fingers liao...

Going collect letters...

I think i'll drop dead in Batam this Sunday......

过了明天就会更好。。。

My Colorgenics

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.
In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.
We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.
As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration.
You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own.
You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd.
Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

14 May

Kinda late, i know but better late than never right?!

Hee... Jun wrote such a sweet 'poem' that adequately summarise our r/s!

Must rip it here.

" Happy Girlie Day to the 3 of you ^^
and many more years to come
we have been through 9 years of ups and downs,
that is not something everyone in your life can go through with you.
I am grateful to have known you all
though we are in different phases in our life right now
the bond never seems to break
there were times when it seems shaky
someone somehow would restore it
I still envision us 4 sitting at the mahjong table when we have our grandchildren
and carry on our friendship
-Cheers to more years to come- "

I can't imagine the mahjong part. Leng is already so slow now, can't imagine playing with her when all our bones are rickety. Hahaha =) Most probably will kanna suan by me. While ting play fetch with cuppie's descendents and jun waiting for her oven to 'ding!'. The stake will then be not $$$ cos we'll all be so freaking rich. Hahahah.... so funny.

Dunno if i can live that long at the rate my body is falling apart now. =p

Lug my heavy bag ard bedok reservior neighbourhood for that BLODDY S.A.M machine with no weight machine (i needed that) & NO post box. Might as well let AXS take over kah. No competitve edge already lor.

My lady boss saw the plaster on my shoulder just now. She say tml will help me 刮痧.

Glurpp.. sure pain one. But can save $$$ lah.. hehee...

Oki... i think i digress too much already. 讲重点...

To my 3 best friends, bosom buddies, companions, confidants, pal & soul mates...

Thank you for:

the wonderful years past, present & future;

the patience, tolerance, acceptance when i was saint, devil & an ass.

Even if we may seen dislocated sometimes, we are actually like Legos;

scattered all around but belonged to one whole.

Insane grown-up life doesn't allow us to spend time together like we did in those blue pinafores day.

At least, we did have those days... & not forgetting those many years in future to come..

Happy Anniversary!!!

Name

Found this name character book yesterday. Did a list up for reference.
But i think this one is not that accurate. It has limited vocabulary leh, using the same phrase over & over again. Also, those it mentioned for my parents is also not very correct. Say my mum should be a slim lady, where got?! Hahaa...
I think the other book, , more accurate. Will load that one up when i'm free coz' that one is all in 繁体. Will type until siao i think. I already got a hard time with those below. The 苏 & the 丽, wha lau... look until i blur. ahahah...
Anyway, just for entertainment only. Don't take it too seriously , ok?!


林：（火 -8）一生平凡清雅多才肯作肯劳重义信用，中年劳，晚年吉祥。

思：（金 -9）有才能理智，勤俭励业，家声克振，名利双收，晚年劳神。

佳 ：（木 -8）勤俭建业，家声克振温和多才，中年成功，晚年劳神，欠子之字。

林：（火 -8）一生平凡清雅多才肯作肯劳重义信用，中年劳，晚年吉祥。

思：（金 -9）有才能理智，勤俭励业，家声克振，名利双收，晚年劳神。

琪： （木 -12）智勇双全，清雅荣贵，官运旺中年成功隆昌清秀之字。

林：（火 -8）一生平凡清雅多才肯作肯劳重义信用，中年劳，晚年吉祥。

思：（金 -9）有才能理智，勤俭励业，家声克振，名利双收，晚年劳神。

敏：（水 -11）有爱情厄小心，多才温和，清雅荣贵出国之格，劳神之字。

苏 ：（金 – 20- 繁体）天生聪明，多才贤能中年劳或奔波晚年吉祥隆昌。

慧：（水 -15）聪明伶俐，清雅温和，中年劳或爱情厄，晚年吉祥。

婷：（火 -12）温和贤淑，口快心直多才清雅，中年隆昌一生安详，福寿之字。

陈：（火- 11- 繁体）口快性刚，清雅多才，中年劳苦，晚年隆昌。

丽：（火-19 –繁体）清秀多才妻贤子贵中年平晚年吉祥，女人小心爱情厄忌车怕水。

玲：（火 -9）清秀巧妙，多才又能，中年成功隆昌但有爱情厄，出国之字。

林：（火 -8）一生平凡清雅多才肯作肯劳重义信用，中年劳，晚年吉祥。

姿：（金 -9）秀气巧妙，贤能晓事，温和伶俐，成功隆昌幸福。

君：（木 -7）有爱情烦恼，一生清雅多才巧智，秀气伶俐中年有灾厄晚年吉庆。

天啊！

Can’t somebody tell me what am I doing?

吃不饱 睡不好 好可怜。。。

I’m dozing off just as I’m typing this, struggling to stay awake in office. Look forward to catch some forty winks in the bus journey to Dhoby Gaut later.

Sis said I’m feeling like that coz’ I don’t any idea what I want.

Doing something that I hope will make a significant change to my current status but there’s no guarantee.

Everyone is like that right?! Who really knows what they want.

If so, there won’t be war anymore.

I think I’m a person who needs instant results.

Hence, periodic goals are essential for me to keep motivated at a sufficient level to keep going.

Therefore, my current concern is

Where the bloody hell is the results out? 2 months is a tad bit too long isn’t it?

Sianz… angry le lah....