believe it or not... i'm neurotic...

i think qi can ascertain my neurotic state of mind...

i know i'm too honest, blunt, too serious, that i offend everyone around me... don't really care.

sometimes i can restrain, be nonchalant, sometimes i just lose control

most of the times i regret the words that came out of my mouth, so?

i just feel people in general cannot take truth right in their face...

just bcos I don't want to 委曲求全 it makes me a bully?!

what a world....

run.... don't run.... ? i want run to the end of the world, is there an end in the first place?

i'm officially broke... penniless... no money to pay school fees.. bills... library fines... running into debts....

so screwed....

do u have this feeling that somehow things always go well for some people while life just sux for u...?

even if their troubles seem so 'perfect'? maybe they have the ability to 拿得起放得下

why why why why why why why why why why why why why why............?

so sianz................ so demoralising... my mental state is not healthy... i bite.

aiya.... i just don't fit in. bleh

movies

it is always this time, whenever there's movies i wanted to catch, that I realized I really don't have many friends...

so far.... i think i only managed to catch one movie myself i think... other than that i resigned to not not watching at all...

definitely not walloping in self-pity, kinda enjoy this somehow... im such a psycho... hahahahaha...