I wish, I wish, i wish

My next job allows me to fly here fly there, walk here walk there, with endless emails & faxes & brain cells churning & dying at exponential rate. I really think something similar will happen.
~ I rather died as a workaholic than libe as an idler ~

My belief is that our life is made up of quotas. Life just adjust itself accordingly whenever something happen. So whatever you've been deprived of during your early years will be given/happen in times soon to come, & vice versa. It's not just about materialistic wants or spiritual fulfillment. I'm talking about real stuff, minute stuff, like give & take?! Probably because I felt it this way. Maybe that's why people change, environment change. .

Examples:

I used to sleep like nobody's business when i was younger. If I'm at home & given the freedom to do what I want. I'll sleep. Highest record was 3days. Was in unconciousness state other than waking up to pee & have that only meal of the day. Then I was moping around at home, with nothing to do & don't know what to do.
Now: Sleep is almost a luxury. Sleep to me is only counted when I feel rejuvenated & fresh after tt. Now, I woke up every morning feeling like I've never slept. Shoulders sore, back aching. Late nights due to the sudden influx of engagements.

Last time, sacarsm was my 2nd name. Wit-talk was what I'm known for. Now, eloquence seems to be as frequent as PMS. See, when I'm on the talking mood, I call myself 'possessed". [refering to this entry] What the... right?!

During sch days, I like to go around for delicacies. Now, I've no idea where to go for good food other than kitchen. Monday, i wanted to take a quick bite at LJS b4 lesson. BUt after staring at the menu for 5mins, i walked away with only a cup of ice milo. Not sure if it's the food doesnt' interest me or I'm not interested in food. Haha! So weird....

So when i was in college, i took the 'bo-chup' attitude. Now: It's back to the 'be serious' cycle. Just that other than studies which i actually managed to push myself, work is such a... a... BLAND?
So now that i'm having such an 'easy?!' time at work, I really hope that my future job will be something more exciting or even challenging. As i mentioned before, this place is too much of a comfort zone.
Maybe i'm just freaking out 2weeks before my 1st year here, a place where i see myself not improving, stagnating or even degenerating.
I don't know the 3years period was mentioned out of convenience sake or mere moral obligatons?!

In case you all are wondering - Why the sudden 'emotions' on job?

- Auntie June asked me the other day what can i do after I finish my course. Was stunned momentarily. Seriously, I really don't know leh! I think this is normal for most people.
- Seeing Leng graduating soon & already embarking on her job search
- hearing that some uncle's daughter already starting a job right after she finished in this month, earning $4300 a month. But it's graveyard hours.
- realising that most of my friends (not many to beign with though, ahaha) might achieve career stability way earlier than me. Sad....
- observed that my class has a high unemployment rate... conversations regarding job interviews are a norm.

Shrugzzz. . . .I think i'm must be crazy. Hahahah =)