C'est La Vie

This is so gonna be my favourite phrase of the year. LOL

Think i use it at least once a day while msn-ing Leng. O well... not much chances left though..

This is it! after one of the fastest decisions made in my life, Tmr will be my last day after 30months. Quite a feat actually..

As i said many times to many ppl, I'm going to swear off enviromentally UNfriendly takeaways once i leave this place.

A mixture of feelings, excited abt the new envt n exposure yet worried that I might not live up to expectations.

still ok with the job scope n stuff, just really paranoid abt my wardrobe!!

Hope what i bought last sat is enough to last me appropriately. Geez

Wish me well... haha!

Sidenote: Will I miss my current workplace? Probably an absolute No.

Monday

I woke up earlier than usual cos i tot i heard a cat mewing, than i realised it was min's crying.
I tot something was not right cos i didn't hear mum's scolding. anyway scoldings can't make her cry. she will just sulk n pout.
then i hear mum n qi rushing to her... so I went to check out what happened lor.
It seems she cracked her finger while trying to unravel her mop of hair and it was so painful that she teared. what the... =_='''
U need a haircut, Jamie Darling. ...

sunday at home is all play, no work.
Being monday, is a bored shitless day at work. gathering tt no 1 will be coming in today, i think i shld try to do some tutorials. doubt i'll get a chance to do it properly once i start the new job.

im missing out the yr end bonus due to my departure.. so its a ultimate broke mth. have to resort to withdraw payout for the sch fees. Must be careful in spending this 2 mths.
Thank goodness my acccumulated kind deed has kind returns. dun have to be bother by the bills until next year, at least.
For my benefactoress' generosity, i wish her luck, confidence and big smile for her interview later... erm.. i mean now. lol

OMG....

i just did the most difficult thing in my life so far... and i think the worse has yet to come..

Im anticipating whirlwind for the next 2 month, i hope its not whirlpool...

Breathe Deeply......

Lucky Streak

Ooohh... I won $10 from a SingaporePool's ScratchIt! 

See... the upward trend of the bungee effect is taking off... LoL

The interview went quite well except of some hicuups & embarrassing moments.. thinking of it now, i still cringed n stomach flipped. Well... it was a good experience nonetheless.. I guess I got the luxury to know who is the interviewer beforehand & i think that helps. All thanks to Jun... 

Tmr going to meet the gang for Mid-Autumn's gathering... n im gonna get my HP6 & MP3. 

Thanks to Ting & Jun(again)! 

Now.. i really to get my fyp going... 

Bungee Jump

Nope... haven't tried tt out. just tot i've been living in a bungee junpy way.

work my way upwards, plunge myself downwards in split seconds, dangle for a while, slowly climb up and the cycle continues...

i'm currently climbing up...

series of coincidences recently...

was thinking of getting a MP3 for the longest time, on-off desire but after a series of meeting whacky ppl ard me (saw an uncle making expletives at a bus stop billboard featuring Team Singapore), i tot i really need one to distract myself from the envt. Then got a mail from jun saying she got lobang for MP3. Great! save myself from the crowd or make pressured-purchase.

was telling qi maybe we shld use the bookstores vouchers to get HP6 & 7. few days later in the middle of a mj game, ting called to say she saw HP6 at 2ndhand bkstore at thomson, so got her to help me get it. Wonderful!

I 'spring-cleaned' my work desk ytd, literary flipped the whole table n thrashing out old stuffs. Some will know i got this fetish of packing (ting will nod her head vigourously i think, got tramautised by me last taiwan trip). anyway... my boss is one of those 'dunnos' as he kept giving me that raised-brows side looks from his table. I DO look like im packing to leave for good. LOL

anyway during qi's job searching period, i make a mental note to update my resume in case of any sudden opportunity and it came... jun's lobang. going give a shot n try not to embarrass jun in the process...

i got pressured-purchased by the beauticians... so it's facial for me.?!!! can u imagine? let's see if I look more radiant after the whole thing...

Why is that I need to spend $ when i'm at the poorest or is it that the spendings make me poor?
haizzz.... absence of 1 mth pay is enough to get myself in a pathetic position.... i still got 2 more instalments to go for sch fees... die.. must restrain myself from unneccessay expeditures now on.

我要赚多多钱！！！

PS: this is creepy man... i was thinking to myself of asking couz S abt my fyp and she suddenly MSN me out of the blue. another coincidence?!

那个让我又爱又恨的姑娘。。。

Dear 敏敏,
Wish you everlasting fun, laughter, peace & joy!
~ Happy Birthday ~

PS: All the best in the swimming meet & future ones to come!

Love, Oei

clothes

I can't help but thinking of the association.
from clean folded clothes to dishing out dirty laundry...
incredulous...
is this 苦中作乐? shrugz...

20082008

Just realised today is the 20/08/2008 when i wrote the cheque... hmm.. interesting day to note the bizzare occurences

#1: was waiting for the sch shuttle bus last sat at queenstown when a lady (chinese) approached me to help her sms. it seems that she just went to visit a friend (indian male) at queenstown prison and needed to help him pass a msg to his ex-wife (Fillipina). Strange combi, right?
The sms was a simple one stating when is he coming out, that he missed their daughter, and he doesn't love her and has nothing with her anymore and don't bother her after he is out.

i was constantly in the bewildered mode... diaoz. The lady started to talk to me like an old friend after i sent the sms. told me the why the guy was in imprisioned the 3rd time (overstay, using stolen nirc and overstay again), received his 6 rotans at which part of the butt... ask me if she can applied him over to sg, how to do it, etc.. (she think im ICA is it?!) if not she gotta meet him at m'sia instead.
She could have gone on and on if I didn't sms my classmate to meet me there. Sweat...

#2: same day, at the school library where no-necked G was there with his gang. I was looking through this textbook when he came over to tell me POLITELY the recommended text was at the other side. This sudden change of attitude caught me by surprise and again the look of surprise. This is weirder that #1 in my opinion but later i figure out it cld be cos Girl N was with me and he wants to impress as usual.

#3: at work: desperado EK called for 1 quotation. He has the tendency to overstep. when i realised i faxed to their old location, not knowing they had shifted, he went "U so cute, still faxed there". +_+''' later on, " do u still owe me anything? or I got owe you dinner, lunch?" While i rolled my eyes in disgust, i was quite calm to ignore whatever he said and ended the conv with " i faxed the quote to you now. Bye."
Leng later commented that i'm so challenging, no wonder he continued to do that. O please...

#4: on the bus59 after work. this uncle kept asking me how to read the road names. Gotta explain what's PIE jurong, Changi Airport, Bedok, Tuas, etc in mandarin. A local but he doesn't even know what's 'highway'. People around us was raising their brows when i have to said 泛岛快速公路.
whatever...

#5: this is power... dear ms tan actually asked me what is the url for her blog. i tot it was a trick qn before i typed "wordpress.com?" with hesitation. her reply, "O ya.. i totally forgot"
Win liao lor... lolz

Guess this is one of those rare funny entry i wrote since dunno when. Though the incidents are quite funny as it is, can't seem to put it across in the right tone. Qi can do this well while im plauged with negativity in syntax. lolz

New Skin

Yup, new skin... for a change.

It's getting easier to do this nowadays, no need to have knowledge of html & whatsoever.

Another week ahead.... I woke up on mondays waiting for fridays...

Blocked

I logged in not knowing what to blog...

lack of bloggable activites these days... in hermit mode again.

health index on the plunge, too much distress

losing twinkle in the eyes, almost irrecoverable by now i think

dropped swimming... resume work.... (how i wished it was the other way round)

skimed through 5th exam anyhow... started 6th sem this wk

procrastinating on my dissertation workflow... classmates still as irritable

Hair cut, but no weight cut ( can't believe this, was on light diet for a few weeks, kns)

still attitude at work

yet to recover from the last sat's aftermath

Life is such a miserable affair... if only i could swap...

end up, wrote quite a bit eh?!

Drama

how dramatic can a person's life be, or a month of it to be exact?!

im a pathetic fool, period

Unwell

I'm NOT feeling very good.... haizzz

there's indeed something very wrong with me when i cannot enjoy my mum's cooking as usual.

i get hungry every few hours but i've no apetitte...

Gastritis kept churning stomach, making me toss n turn in my bed whole night long.. half awake half the night...

Bad sleep = more complications.... Heatiness gives me Headache, Ulcer, and now dunno is toothache or gum ache... plus the continuous belching and nausea & feeling very tired in the day...

Life is so hellish now... crap -(

Come on ppl, surprise me with a blog entry leh....

So irritated!

I just want to clear 3yrs to get qualifications, as simple as that. Guess, it's just wishful thinking on my part.

it's almost like battling, less physical more mental. On top of the load of tutorials to clear & the occurence of exams 3x a year with a on-going job, I still have to handle some people's imaturity, under table schemes & plots, hypocrisy & even tactlessness.
I assume that as compared to full time, there will be more intellecutals around. Come to think about it now - What a JOke!
it's like back to primary school.. .

i know there's something wrong with me, in terms of socialising. Weird, odd, strange... whatever..
I never find ' to blend with the majority' an essential... judging from the number of friends which i can count with 1 hand, it has always been like this. Making small chats is a tedious task to me, i rather kiss a python.

I keep a low profile, quiet, independent, satisfy on being alone or even aloof . Yet there are just some stupid pple that like to magnify my abnormality ( yah.. i agree im not normal)
Does my oddity really affect you so much? or just plain envy that i'm what u can't?!

What's strange is the amount of phone calls, sms and emails i always get around exam periods. When Ppl who normally whisper behind your back suddenly come up to you with a bright chripy smile, u know something is not right. " Jacq, want to go makan? Jacq, want to go home together? " Before u know it, " Jacq, u finish this qn aldy? Can i read ur ans? How u write ar? want to swap ans? "
i pui pui pui pui pui... *roll my eyes*

Instead of focusing on the lessons, i've to crack my brain to taiji all these idiots away, act real stupid n blur & timing my exits to avoid all this pests! TMD... Wah Kaozzz... this is more tiring than the lesson itself!

this is Crazy!!! Seriously... u ppl should really get a life..
start by reading the newspaper & oberve what's around u.
Public display of ignorance is just not cool, i tell ya.

I think im weird because i'm more sane than them...

I remained unperturbed but trust me, no one day has past w/o me thinking of throwing a chair at ....

16 more months...

Filler Post

JacQ-- says (11:02AM):

isn't it strange how 2 ppl who were once so close can become complete strangers...

Li Leng-- WhAt ShOuLd I BuY foR GSS?? =) says (11:04 AM):
once u decided to step out of his life or have a life w/o him, u will have no more connection w/him

Anyway... this is just one of the more intellectual topics both of us engage in out almost daily msn club =) haha!

No time to update ar... ambushed & exhausted work (endless cutting of twines), school (exams in 01mth.. die..), swimming (sore arms...) & other random stuffs...

GOSH... I need all the willpower i've to clear this midyear...

sehhh...

PS: i just realised my 3 good friends are all out of town this wkend... the only R&R i get is the swim session with min earlier this evening in tt murky salty crowded yishun swimming complex. Mum even mentioned tt the saltiness is cos ppl urine in the pool... DIAOzzz

Madness!

Today is full of madness...

i took the wrong side of the train, transferring at city hall instead of raffles place & realising only when i reached paya lebar?!!! So smart...

i found my partner in crime... ms lin.

5hrs in bugis & i went home with 3pairs of shoes ($16 in all, yes total not each) & 3 tops ($10 each) & 1 atomiser which i've been looking for it for the longest time.

i realise I like to buy 3pairs in a day... hahah! Quite satisfied purchase.

unfortuanately only 1 top fits me well, another 1 so-so & 1 i cld not button up. darn the chest...

i feel fat after coming back from Penang... time to work out.... Eating trips do not suit me.

Btw, for all those concern souls. I got AABB last sem... all of the lower range. Quite disappointed esp when 1 person i taught got a freaking 91 when i got 79 nia for the damn FM. Imbalance... *shake head shake head* to console myself, not bad lah for someone who missed 40% lesson due to chicken pox right?!

Starting to pia now!!!

Generation Gap

Jamie says (12:27 PM):
i can't talk to u now cause the singnet broadband is a little bit crazy lah so i will talk to u at sunday instead
JacQ says (12:28 PM):
im not going out tmr or tonight
JacQ says (12:28 PM):
dun make it sound like im always not ard
Jamie says (12:28 PM):
school
JacQ says (12:28 PM):
can ask dajie to check the pc later
JacQ says (12:28 PM):
what school
Jamie says (12:28 PM):
ur school
JacQ says (12:28 PM):
tmr no sch
Jamie says (12:30 PM):
tomorrow talk to u in the afternoon cause i got something to do at morning
JacQ says (12:30 PM):
diaoz.. u very busy hor
JacQ says (12:30 PM):
oki
JacQ says (12:30 PM):
so later i cant talk to u at home lah
Jamie says (12:31 PM):
maybe iam going swimming
JacQ says (12:31 PM):
u very funny
JacQ says (12:31 PM):
i cant stand it anymore
JacQ says (12:31 PM):
oki lah
JacQ says (12:31 PM):
bye
Jamie says (12:31 PM):
byebye

Unstable Network,SATC & Flatulence

This is so frustrating... 'wavering' network in office. Costs me to be constantly DC during msn, never mind.... but cannot connect to blogpsot server means my entry cldn't be save in time.
The overloaded PC now keeps hanging... need to defrag i guess.

This is the 3rd 4th time im creating this entry... argh! Stupid...

Anyway, the below was meant as a reply at jun's blog but it keeps hanging that i got frustrated. She has alluded us to the characters in Sex and The City... haha!

my response:

Charlotte is the most conservative and traditional of the group, 'pretty' much like you =) U put me as the career-minded lawyer with extremely cynical views on relationships and men. Hah! how appropriate... Sam is sexually promiscuous while Leng is sexually provocating. =p I tot Leng might share the same shoe-fetish as Carrie?! Ting has a bit of everything, i agree... I wld love for us to be like tt, minus the problematic r/s part. hah!

This whole week has been pathetic, for myself. Down with a real bad sore throat + PMS mood swings... with ppl thinking u are cao geng n other stuffs -things are really not going well. Think i rubbed many ppl off during the period.... causing unnecessary worries also. sorrie guys...

unhelpfully, my haywired disgestive system adds on to my frustrations. Been belching & flatulenting these days whenever im hungry or just eaten. Think is some gastric complications due to occassional absences of breakfast, irregular meal times, poor diet, over-starved & sometimes over-stuffed. Thankfully im always alone in the office so that i don't to ferment those, i must insist, ordorless flatus.

So ppl, please take care of yourself. Breakfast is very IMPORTANT, really. unless you like to burp loudly uncontrollably in a room of 40+ ppl. =(

hm rs has been quite strained since the decision... or even since the return... heng-fully things r making a good turn.. at least what i tot. Guess this need time to adjust... The possible recall of decision came as a surprised... wonder if im partly accountable unconsciously?! but even so, i feel this is the best way out, at least considering the situation now.

1 lesson learnt... it is really difficult to exercise generosity with grace, at least i failed this time round. Along with many other factors, it is hard to keep an objective stand. maybe i just like to keep ppl i care with me?! wah, so selfish... cant even tahan myself.

I got a serious character FLAW. whahaha! (by now i think the pms is fading off, hence the insanity)

1 good thing: Can go shopping together =) maybe can resume 'the plan' ?

loy·al·ty –noun, plural -ties.
1.
the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations.
2.
faithful adherence to a sovereign, government, leader, cause, etc.
3.
an example or instance of faithfulness, adherence, or the like: a man with fierce loyalties.

com·mit·ment - noun.
The state of being bound emotionally or intellectually to a course of action or to another person or persons: a deep commitment to liberal policies; a profound commitment to the family.

I'm loyal but not committed. Is this a paradox?!

haven't been blogging much... not that i've nothing in mind but it's so distasteful that i've my qualms putting it down.

I hate my current state of being, little things get on my nerves recently...

want to sleep; have to work
want to scream; endure
want to cry; control
want to swear; breathe

I'm not at the best attitude or r/s at work; tk's predicament didn't earn my sympathy.
On the contrary, im losing respect.
despite the fact that i spend the least amt of time at home, my role as adhesive remains.
didn't gain much experientially from the penang trip, only a pair of jeans & heels.
guess it's freaky to see folks behaving like yourself years ago, i ended up the one giving looks of disapproval. tsk tsk tsk...

For now & as always, life is unfair. but i believe in karma.

Guess what needed to be done now is to push all thoughts behind & start cracking for revision.

14 May

Once again, another year has passed. Happy Anniv girls!

ytd was supposed to be a happy day, at least it was ard evening time.

morning sky was overcast with dark clouds, like my mood was perturbed.

at least the day went well, time flies at work; no jam, well seated in buses & trains

was informed some sudden news by tkn, which more or less explained the behavior of tk lately.

only one regret was we didn't make it to claritycafe.. gggrr. die die also must make it one day

i realise we only meet on special days, or is it because there's a special day every month including post exams?! though it will no longer be valid. Lolz

Good that we have several plans ahead, bdaes n hkg trip next yr =)

my schedules are in such a whirlpool, no proper rest can be executed at all. i think im gonna sleep for revenge all the way to penang , which is highly possible. remind me to bring my travel pillow.

PS: Ppl! i want all the photos, never get a single one this yr.

PPS: all is well.

my fault?

will i be responsible if both my sisters fared badly for their exams/assignments this time round?!
cos i've failed to hide the potter series properly?! haha!

Life has been rather hetic since the beginning of mth... seems like i've something on 80% of the evenings after work, with lessons as the majority.

went for the 1st session at carelyna... not too bad. Went for 2nd swimming lesson, think i learnt pretty fast, just be less kan cheong i think. was told that other ppl take 4-5 lessons to learn the breathing part?! huh?! so waste $ ar... i was thinking of clearing everything in 3-4 mths... so that i wont spend so much.

Folks away to BKK this morning... wonder what will they bring back this time?!

Going for lunch now... must keep in mind to stick to those 'safe food'. =p

PS: Why no one update their blog huh?!