loy·al·ty –noun, plural -ties.
1.
the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations.
2.
faithful adherence to a sovereign, government, leader, cause, etc.
3.
an example or instance of faithfulness, adherence, or the like: a man with fierce loyalties.

com·mit·ment - noun.
The state of being bound emotionally or intellectually to a course of action or to another person or persons: a deep commitment to liberal policies; a profound commitment to the family.

I'm loyal but not committed. Is this a paradox?!

haven't been blogging much... not that i've nothing in mind but it's so distasteful that i've my qualms putting it down.

I hate my current state of being, little things get on my nerves recently...

want to sleep; have to work
want to scream; endure
want to cry; control
want to swear; breathe

I'm not at the best attitude or r/s at work; tk's predicament didn't earn my sympathy.
On the contrary, im losing respect.
despite the fact that i spend the least amt of time at home, my role as adhesive remains.
didn't gain much experientially from the penang trip, only a pair of jeans & heels.
guess it's freaky to see folks behaving like yourself years ago, i ended up the one giving looks of disapproval. tsk tsk tsk...

For now & as always, life is unfair. but i believe in karma.

Guess what needed to be done now is to push all thoughts behind & start cracking for revision.