Period = Moody

I think i'll end up be Seung-Hui Cho #2 if I stay in the States.

We are always in constant conflict with ourselves.

Few days ago, i was getting worried coz I miss my period.

Today, I was wishing it did not come at all.

I don't like period, mine actually.

This cyclical process is so queer.

Physically, I get tired easily as the iron level decreases.

Mentally, i get very paranoid. Somehow I always assume all the whispers & sniggers are all about lauging at, making fun or teasing me, be it in class or on trains.... I'll imagine I'll have the ability to tekan them back. Be it is supernaural powers or gangster authority or even gun. BANG!

Emotionally, I get very negative, so much so that i can feel the dark aura around me. shivers...

I get very mean, cold, attitude to others, more than usual that is.

Walking alone the streets back home, i wallow in self pity, of loneliness, of deaths.

I spend a lot of time thinking about what has gone wrong, what will go wrong or what is wrong about myself as a person.

Why ar?! I think my hormones are very disoriented, probably chemical imbalance in the brain, reduction in the amount of certain neurotransmitters.

Life... I hate myself. I'm getting crazy soon if these goes on.... sighh...