21st years

The hoohaa over 21st birthdays has been over-rated & exaggerated!

By my 21st, I

- have less than 2K to my name
- got almost no friends
- have no substantial qualifications to speak of
- from 1st in class during my 1st year of academic life dropped to bottom in college
- grow from fat to fatter
- look from at least photogenic to haggard looking
- got myself ostracised
- segregate myself, as a result
- went into hiding for almost a year.
- turned from leader to loser
- was victimised financially
- don't have a single normal relationship
- been through depression & not sure if i'm out of it
- Planned my death almost everyday for months.
- attempted once but failed, obviously
- Plunged myself into all sorts of crappy jobs
- run away from jobs
- want to sleep 24/7
- put myself into self denial
- suffered from iron deficiency
- got everyone to hate me
- problems to communicate verbally
- hate myself more & more
- realised I'm a fool
- from ease studying to struggling with school work
- doubt myself
- never did anything right
- becoming forgetful
- stop making decisions
- Giving up on myself
- lacking interest in everything
- felt like shit, still feeling this way
- live like a zombie
- wonder what am I doing?
- Still thinking what to do?
- Trying not to do anything
- accepted my fate
- won't be able to break out of this vicious cycle

Life is Great, isn't it?!