REGRET / REFLECTION / RESOLUTION

~ Never let yesterday's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams" ~

2006...OMG it's so damn fast!!! I feel that this year has been unfairly compressed. Yet, I couldn't really recall any significant details at all. Denial has lead to forgetfulness... I guess… hahah! Seems like this year is nothing but of Bad Decisions!

Just as I:
- Celebrated my 21st birthday in the MY MOST OBTUSE MENTAL STATUS (aka BLUR) with a bunch of GOOD Friends whom has little tolerance for Alcohol
- Shake my leg & bum around the entire Lunar New Year while ‘studying’
- Got myself into a bad deal at GIT and endured for almost 3months before calling the FINAL Quit.(I went back after 1st resignation coz I had foolishly trusted one who told me to give another shot. It was a shot at me literally.
Culture shock, inability to adapt, pressure intense environment or whatever, I strongly believe my eight characters clashed with this Co. Suffered from paranoia, depression & gastric virus (many times some more) before I decided to take the silent retreat. Email my Ultimate resignation after days of MIA. So appalled that I got HY to pick up my stuff on my behalf!
- Celebrated the “whatever that could go wrong went extremely wrong” birthday. Erm…… let’s just not dwell on the ‘already happened’ anymore bah. Heehee =p
- Met that idiot. Another bad decision. Good thing is over now.
- Got a new job. Passed the 3months mark & still hanging on till now
- Celebrated yet another birthday in JB. Something new!!! 2nd time all 4 of us + 3 male escorts went overseas?! (Need to stamp passport so consider overseas. Another case of self denial… Ho Ho Ho!)
- Got my results for IATA-UFTAA Cert. it was such a fool proof paper that I wasn’t elated at all when received my distinction cert. Phui!
- 3rd mths into the new job I procrastinate about going back to school. It was an excuse to run away from the job lah. But I hang on. =)
- Watch my 1st R21 show ‘Lower City”
- Went back to school eventually
- Attracted unwanted attention at Changi Airport Arrival hall… Eh-hem… for that last BIG DAY of the year.
- Went to Zouk after 2 years -> too early & too rowdy. Disappointing = (
- Sessions of MahJong, conversation on GuYs, BeauTy, FasHion & COnStiPAtion...

It's 2007

I want:

- LOVE THYSELF
- Improve my fitness level.
- Look Better
- Have more Confidence
- Save more $$$
- Travel via Plane at least once!
- Appreciate my family more
- Love my sisters more (No over-indulge though)
- Study Hard!
- Put more effort in work!
- Take initiative in friendships THis is an overstatement
- Wear skirts?! (If memory never fail me, I think I managed to wear it once this year! Haha!)

You must remember this:
A kiss is still a kiss. A sigh is just a sigh;
The fundamental things apply, As time goes by.
- Herman Hupfeld

Wishing A Great Year Ahead for All; Happy 2007 !!!

Last workday 2006

Whoo-hoo! 1 more hr to go. but shite I got lesson at faraway Unicampus later. Sux!

The satisfaction derived from consolidating what have been done throughout the year is indeed shiok! haha.. sound so perverted...

Some stupid spoil my morning today. Was happily eating my sandwich when the msn conversation started. Although i'm not a very verbalised person (even worse now that I hardly talk to people) Sometimes I really hate sms & msn. Because the tone and attitude of the conversation are misconstrued MOST of the times, dependent largely on the imagination of the readers. That's why I'm very particular about punctuations for I don't like to be misinterpreted. Misunderstandings are like vampires - easy to create difficult to kill. It's takes a lot of courage, guts, tonnes of reflection and detailed analysis to realise/discover the miscommunications & accept it, admit it & bear responsibility for it. Be it the executor or victim.
However, there are other situations whereby people just causually glance at the message & ASSUMED what was written was what they PERCIEVED to be. In OB, we call it the SYMBOLIC-INTERACTION PARADIGM. (just proving that I pay attention in class.. heehee)
This behavior is most observable in the male species of human beings, for they are structured this way.
Realised when U sms a couple of questions to girls, they can reply u very fast with all questions answered & even answered your doubts for the next sms?!
Change the receipient to a guy, u'll realised no matter how concise you are, they will only response with a one liner (i.e no details) to the last phrase. Some even require several promptings via subsequent smses before U finally get the answer you want among the "huhs" & "yahs"
If you are nodding your head now, U know what I meant. *wink*

oki... 4.40pm. stomach growling already. Gotta packed up & get ready to leave.

Long awaited Mahjong with the girls this Sun thru 2007!!! Come $$$ Come... Yeah!!!

LoneLy X'Mas

Tiring last week...

NOthing much happened... except Jun's belated B-day Celebration [eh-hem... where are the photos???]
Pulled a trick on them... tt's all.
Went to:
New Asia Bar - not bad. Nice ambience.. food not bad.. service.. erm..
Went to Zouk/Phuture after nth years... Disappointing... =(

Was feeling faint & nausea on fri.. due to exhaustion I guess or maybe that unintended news that caught me unaware . . . move on...

Mum's dinner dissipated all signs of sickness.

Work... normal
Sch... still as disgusting but nvm... Endure!

Nothing on for this weekend except for the funeral.

Still raining...

Boring...

sighhhh...

Typical Day

i'm so bored that I've clicked the "send & receive" every 5mins. Hence, I decided to blog. The past 2 week have been a blast, rushing here & there dunno busy with what.

When you are so used to sleeping at 9.30pm every evening, I'm now suffering from the aftermath of the activities as I slept less than 5hrs for the past 14days. Effect: I literally dozed off when i'm sitting down and not doing anything - bus/mrt journey to work, to sch, to home, at work (esp like now when there's absolutely nothing to do!) The sleepiness is so bad that I could not even control... eyelids just get heavier and heavier... before I can stop myself from dozing off, I woke up! Sigh... I believe diet has an issue with this exhaustion too. My period came last week & as everyone knows, menstruation actually snapped iron in the body. Although i managed to replenish it with pig's kidneys & liver, somehow it doesnt seem to be very effective. ahaha! Also, i think i cannot live w/o rice. This week, i think my rice intake level is the lowest from months. Without it, I can't sleep well. Maybe that's why my tear duct got blocked again. GGGRrrr...
Or could be lessons over stimulate my brain so much so that I need some time to wind down before I can rest completely. Maybe is those crappy websites?! hahaah!!!

Due to extreme boredom at work (U can't blame me. I tried to find stuff to do but there's none. Small company.. cannot help it lah. I'm even fully prepared for 2007!) & yet I can't sleep here, The tendency to web/blog surf started to increase. ho ho ho... but i have sufficient integrity not to surf porn... hahaha! Did I?! Dunno lah.. anyway i clear history everyday... hahahaa!

Saw my cousin's blog. Either I'm outdated or there's seriously some issues with youngsters nowadays. Nothing wrong with drinking or smoking. It's their freedom of choice. But I find it so weird, No need so drama-mama bah! haha... Maybe bcos like all adults, we usually denied others around us have grown up. That will mean we are getting older bah! hahah..

Mum is back home after 2 days in the hospital. The impact of Life without Mum is so much greater than Life without Dad at home. Probably cos I'm all alone.[Qi went hostel while Min was sent to Auntie's hse. No 1 can entertain her lah]
- had to prepare 2 alarms. End up i wake up waiting for the alarm to ring instead of being waken up by it.
- left home with empty-stomached, reached home with empty-stomached, slept with empty-stomached. I had 3 miserable microwave-heated hotdogs for dinner last night. No bread liao Dad never say. To make the sitaution more ironic, I fed the goldfishes while my stomach was growling. kaoz.
- Try to recycle my clothes, deduce the laundry. I don't want to get a shock from ironing clothes on weekends.
- breathe stinks cos there's no one to talk to at all! Directly worsen my already-retarded speech. Even Qi says i'm more articulate online than offline. Sigh...
- When laughing while watching Project Runway, my inner thoughts call myself "Siao!" Laughter got echo somemore leh! Haha!

Sidenote:
Wah lau... scary. My boss came back so suddenly. Heng ar, I calm enough to click minimise and not the X. Ah bo... effort down the drain. Hahaa... but i thnk he know i not anything. Blow, maybe there goes my salary increment & bonus! [horoscopes this few days keep saying i'll get pay raise, PUI lor!]
Ok.. 45mins to go. Gonna return the long overdue book (dunno how much they going to fine me) & back home to a proper dinner & long awaited sleep. =)

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

Exactly 30 DAYS to my DOUBLE 2 ANNIVERSARY!

365 DAYS nearer to my DEATH!

Ok.. I'm being ANAL I know. Whahahaa!!!

Been busy the last week bcos of the Part IVA of the GREATEST events of the YEAR. Hahaa.. Darling Jun's b-day.

[cant think of the theme yet, after Piscean Party & Cancerian Celebration.] Give me sometime to think... hahaa!

Where are the PICS??? Give me, give me!!!

Down Memory Lane

It's DECEMBER & I'm feeling reminiscencing...

HaHaHa!!!

Check out the photo gallery by the side! =)